Lyrics Control - The Four Owls

Control

Yeye, Losing control, finding control
What?
I’m like a run away train or a beast untamed
A mouth full of paraffin spittin' in the flames
More than a few lines written on the grave
Man im living on a page till the victim to the rage
Psychological trigger, pulled by the diabolical figure
I acknowledge the distance as grown
It’s like my thoughts are my own sometimes when i zone
Ego is over blown
Strugglin' to keep it all in check
What we need is more respect
On the same page we can all progress
But too many act like they’re too big for that
Whipping that car out of the lane
And then skidding back
The loss of control
Now you’re not boss of your own life
You’re trapped in a fight you got to resolve
And then you climb back gradually
And find that clarity
Then lie back happily
These voices in my mind are here to whisper and i can’t hide em
I try my best to fight them
Then I end up feeling violent
Know it ain’t my nature
So alone and zone in silence
Is it weed that made me like this or are my mind just like it
Stuck in solitude or sinking to a tiny island
Resentment building up inside me like a deadly virus
Where you end up in the way we pressurize it
Climbing back a wall and building webs attack spiders
Too many leaching off the empire and i can’t provide it
Trying to keep my chakras balanced in their prime alignment
Find it hard confinding
Frozen face smiling
With glass eyes
Plucking the strings of a violin
Work load crushing like a truck flipping sideways
Driven by the light i gotta flip the script write the pain
Flowing out the wall
I want to alleviate this migraine
I guess I gotta live this life and ride it out the highway
Losing control, finding control
Your heart and your body
Mind and your soul
Trying to keep a hold
But my grip stays slipping
Meditate for a minute till my mind state lifts
Losing control, finding control
Your heart and your body
Mind and your soul
Trying to keep a hold
But my grip stays slipping
Meditate for a minute till my mind state lifts
Steady with the slip
Trying to stay focused
But my mind takes a trip
Every time I take sip
From ho to housewife from housewife to ho
It seems rounded circles i go
The go go girls
Will get yo go go so so mental
The only thing that soothes
Is another instrumental
If the chicken leaves a sour taste
Tell her bring the menu
Cause we can be civil
And That’s all I recommend you
I’m taking control
Or at least trying
And now just trying to make a difference
And keep flying
Not just keep denying
It’s much harder to lie to myself
That’s why I’m kicking pirates off of this ship
For no one else
Blame is a funny game
Shame is another stain
Carve my name into the tracks where I used to play
Change what I used to say
Like I used to stray
Lose or gain control
Gain or lose a day
Its been a minute since we spoke
I’ve been battling the demons in my head trying to cope
Was it the weed that i smoked
Booze, acid or the coke
Playing shows every weekend
Then coming home broke
But it ain’t about the money
Really do it for the love fans
Saying that i wish he wasn’t so pissed off
When I’m playing Unaware
That my brain is decaying
Can’t remember where I’ve been
And my mind is relaying
Paranoid delusions with no real solutions
Running in a circle that my habits are choosing
Feel like I’m losing
And it ain’t no hope
It seems weird some will get it from the words that I wrote
But we are in the same boat
Trying to juggle addiction
Struggling' with the truth
That it’s time to quit them
Don’t wanna be the victim like the past
And show me
You wanna change the day
But it’s happening slowly