Lyrics Nineteen Years Young - The Carrier

Nineteen Years Young

I’m nineteen years young
And my mind is weathered
I’m nineteen years young
And things aren’t getting any clearer
Since '88
I’ve felt this hate
Suffocated by my inability
To overcome the unknown
Only fragments of memories
I can’t piece together
I can’t turn inwards
Because I can’t see
Because I can’t fully understand
Who I was born to be
I have a family who will
Always love the me that they never see
My tormented soul ravages me
After a lifetime of praying
I’ll come to an end
Only to find my years of praying have fallen
To deaf ears
Ideas come from nowhere
Where was the beginning of it all?
I’ve cheated, I’ve lied, I’ve stole, I’ve sold my soul
All in hopes of ending it all
The future I see looks bright
But the lights are dimming
The future I see looks bright
But the lights are dimming
But the lights are dimming
I’d pray to him if I thought he was real
I wouldn’t question him if he could make me feel
Anything other than apathy
Anything other than certain tragedy
I’ve got not other choice
But to have faith in life
Regardless of the end
I must live my life
I’m seeing the world in black and white
As if everyday I live is a memory
Of another persons life
As if everyday I live is from another’s life