| Calm down and take my time
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| I got to keep cool and then unwind
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| I got to stay sane and take a breath
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| I got to slow down and just relax
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| I try to persuade myself for real
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| I try to keep control of all my fears
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| I try to switch off and eventually turn aside
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| And I try but I know it’s a waste of my time
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| Run away run away
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| Need it — Do I — Try it — Will I — here
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| Want it — Can I — Got it
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| Rejoice like others do
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| I want to let go and be just like you
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| I want to hang around while I think of nothing else
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| I want to be sun and not the rain
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| I cannot just stop this masquerade
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| I cannot accept that it’s too late
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| I cannot lose my anxiety
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| But I try to find a place where I used to be me
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| I try to break out but I cannot succeed
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| I have to be strong but again I m too weak
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| My senses are frail — so defenseless within
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| But though I’m afraid I will never give in
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| Coalitions of viciousness fade away and take up
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| All my weird sensations — wish I could just wake up
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| From my known improvised life to make up
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| My mind inside — will I just capitulate and give up?
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| Insufficiently wise and I don’t know when I’ll grow up
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| Myself compromised and the cracks now show up
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| In my own crystallized side to blow up
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| To vaporize but I’ll never give up
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| Within our heads so deep inside, within our depths — that’s where they
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| hide And in our heads they’re buried deep; |
| and with these shades we
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| have to live |