| Sometimes I lay in bed for long, long spells
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| Thinking of lines in old movies like
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| «The power of Christ compels you»
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| Or «You maniacs, you blew it up, Damn you all to Hell!»
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| And while thinking of the first time I heard those lines as a child
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| My middle-aged woes are temporarily quelled
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| Sometimes I lay in bed for long, long spells
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| Wonderin' who killed those kids in Atlanta
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| Was it Wayne Williams or some other guy
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| Or was it the Ku Klux Clan?
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| Based on what I’ve seen and heard, looked like a cover up scam
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| Cops coverin' for cops who said they couldn’t find the kids
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| While searchin' a small plot of land
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| And then the kids were found the very next day when their black neighbors
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| Took the law into their own hands
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| Ain’t that a thing?
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| Everyone knows about JonBenét Ramsey
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| White, blue eyed and blonde
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| And Nancy Holloway from Alabama
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| Also white, blue eyed and blonde
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| But you mention 30 blacks killed in '79 through '81
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| Most people say
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| «Never heard of that one»
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| Sometimes to get me out of bed before 2 pm
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| They need The Jaws of Life
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| For the news I watched the night before could often have me in a state of strife
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| I bounce out of it by meditating on the velvety, pastel California colors
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| I look at them so deeply as if I’m living in my final hours
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| 'Cause really, when you get to be my age
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| You don’t know when it’s gonna be your final day
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| I talked to a friend earlier this week
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| His brother just died of esophagus cancer
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| At the young age of 48
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| So I read the books that make me laugh, and lately it’s nothin' but John Fante
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| The way young Arturo argues with his mom relentlessly
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| The way she scolds him constantly for not vigilantly following her guidelines
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| of Christianity
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| And when I want to feel validated about my sometimes frowned upon path
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| I turn to Henry Miller, who continued on far beyond the books for which he was
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| banned
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| Didn’t matter how old how he got, read the books, watch a documentary
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| He never stopped laughing he exuded positivity
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| Then finally I get up and walk to Aquatic or Lafayette Park
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| Or walk in circles in the Marina in the day and sometimes just before dark
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| Wonderin' what’s next for me in this new world we’re livin'?
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| Some of my friends think that if I walk the boarded up streets that I am sinning
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| Some people I know shame me for goin' out and breathing the air I’m breathing
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| Some people criticize me for occasionally wearing a smile
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| As if they’d rather watch me perpetually agonizing
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| Today I woke up knowing the only think that would lift my mood
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| Was meeting Caroline in North Beach for Chinese food
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| Knowing I’d be making music starting at 2
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| Yeah the world’s shut down but I won’t succumb
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| I will always make music
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| I would travel to Ohio though I’m warned not to travel state to state
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| I miss my family and it’s breaking my heart and I gotta look after my mental
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| state
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| Yeah I know all about the world crisis
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| But I also see the Lilies and Irises and the Magnolia trees and the Violets
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| If people can gather in packs to protest and riot
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| And burn down Walmart after Walmart and tear down statue after statue
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| And gather in Oklahoma dressed in red, white and blue
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| Why can I not get on a plane and fly to Ohio and tell my mother and dad
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| I love you? |