| If this the last song I ever wrote
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| If it were to be the night that these motherfuckers murdered me
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| If it were to be a car crash, swerving into a Mercury
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| Burgundy splashed through the glass when sirens circle me
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| I will be viewed as violent certainly
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| Drug-addled so maybe I’ve only written the worst of me
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| Maybe by me even writin these words I’m tempting the fates
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| They come from the heart, sent from a place
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| I couldn’t find in my mind I was blind I was lost
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| In a time warp with a mind warped from a sick scene
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| On a sidewalk, full of suicide thoughts
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| Full of false dreams and hopes that you and I bought
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| Like dope so we had to find things to cope
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| Ended up covered in dirt not washed with soap
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| We ended up learnin all about the cost of coke by the rope
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| And seen some good folks lost from dope
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| I can’t begin to begin, I’m just horrified
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| You hear me penning this thing, you think it’s glorified
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| I just hear the pendulum swing again and again
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| The same song, broken dreams and dead friends
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| I been where I been now I stand where I am
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| As a man with a mic in his hand and God damn
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| Back holding the crack, planet that’s covered with monkeys
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| As I walk through the halls of recovering junkies
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| If this was the last song that I ever wrote
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| I’d tell you to grab it by the throat
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| If this is the last song, I ever write
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| I’ll tell you to stand back up and fight
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| Live yo' life, give yo' life
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| Stand up and fight young man
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| Live your life, give your life
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| Stand up and fight young man
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| If these the last words I ever spoke, would you listen closer?
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| Would you close your eyes, envision what I’m supposed to
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| Be just a ghost of my boys that overdosed
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| On crushed-up poison, crushed with the noise of the ocean
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| Way before Affleck or Coka Nostra
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| Before I had a cashed check or a poster
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| Rode sofa to sofa, clutching on the old toaster
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| Writin on spray paper, grey days of cold culture
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| Devil got an ulcer with a habit to match it
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| In a bad temper so I’m grabbing a ratchet
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| Just to go along with it my stakes are high
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| Tell the people this is the way that I say goodbye
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| To my baby boy Terrence, parents so opposite
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| Just as smart as momma is, fiery as poppa gets
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| Just one thing little man you cannot forget
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| If your will is real nobody else can stop the shit
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| Shit I’m living proof, take a look and figure it
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| Grew up in a paradox and rather not forgive the shit
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| But I had to box out this box and I live with it
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| Boxed out of detox, they said I’m on some wicked shit
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| Haters, were racist so I was facing bigot shit
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| Seen too many homies die just trying to dig a ditch
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| I philosophize all my life burning cigarettes
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| I became smarter but y’all returned to ignorant |