Lyrics Forgive Me - Proof

Forgive Me

Barely raised by my dysfunctional fam
Here I stand as a dysfunctional man
Quick-tempered, short-fused, and pissed at God
Demons pullin at my soul 'til it’s ripped apart
Secret’s out momma that fire I started it
Fuck the fireman logic of the closet by the wire shit
What’s positive about a father that bust nuts then wussed up
And a momma that don’t show her son enough love
Shit, that’s why I run from my first son
And force these chickenhead bitches to get abortions
I married the game, my mistress is fame
My girl Packed her clothes, she said she know I ain’t gon' change
Go insane in a world evil as ours
I done shot at houses, people and cars
The deeper the scars, the worst is the history
God you ain’t gotta forgive me, just don’t forget me, you hear me?
Lord forgive me, for I’ve sinned
Over and over again just to stay, on top
I recall memories, filled, with sin
Over and over again. and again
And most importantly I’m tryin to support my seeds
Can’t seem to get away from them courtin fees
Embroidery, on my hood across my heart disorderly
Breakin in houses of people who ain’t got more than me
Accordingly, I move in error
Gotta face the fact though I can’t fool this mirror
Neglected my daughter and tryin to blame on how I was brought up
like I’m a product of this environment, why ain’t I shot up?
Got up today like «Why you let me breathe again?»
And with each breath I feel death is creepin in
Thinkin sinners are winners and I’ma finish last
My pen and pad record my life as each minute pass
Passin minutes, I shook sin and shook drugs
I did right by you but still you took Bugz
Then caught me in adultery, fought me
for not knowin through the dark streets you walked me, talked to me
It’s the bliss that’s a rush so rush my wrists in the cuffs
It’s like a fight for yo' attention and love
Speakin of Bugz, give me a hint from above
If he not you know I wanna be sent when I’m done
Kid outta wedlock so my lady’s frontin
I love Em, cause he gave me somethin
A positive anything is better than a negative nothin
I was on the edge of death ready to jump in
It’s hard when you can’t find love anywhere
And just because the reverend listen, don’t mean he care
Pops on crack with a sufferin past
I dream in black and white, the world color me bad
Other than sad, painful and stress
Life is good with the webs that, tangle with death
Control the border, control the school
I have sinned amongst men and my soul is yours, yours