| And sever emotional abandonment
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| This has caused traumatic anger issues
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| Resulting in violent outbursts
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| You have responded to this by
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| Massive amounts of self medication
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| So tell me how does this make you feel?
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| Chorus:
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| I think I’m different — People looking at me funny
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| Trying to play me like a dummy just cause I ain’t got no money
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| I think I’m different — I keep on feeling like a waste
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| It’s getting hard to find my place I need my memories erased
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| I think I’m different — I’m kinda crazy in the brain
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| Call me borderline insane but I’m trying to make a change
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| I think I’m different — I couldn’t step into my own
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| I was lost without a home until I found the microphone
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| I was the boy who switched schools, the new kid on the block
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| The fat kid around the corner that no bitches wanna jock
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| And the snitches wanna sock like I was new to this stuff
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| Catch me slipping on the block and trying to prove that they tough
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| Called me names like slim, made fun of my skin
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| I swear they laughed and cracked jokes like I was missing a limb
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| I guess I didn’t fit in I guess I’m different than them
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| My momma hugged while she cried — don’t you listen to them
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| And the times I got beat up but I would fight to the end
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| Tried to keep my mind open, tried to find me a friend
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| Was bumping tougher than leather when I was sad and wanted in
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| Just when it started getting better is when we packed and moved again
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| A set back is a set up for a comeback when it’s over
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| Tried to suck it up instead a crying on your shoulder
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| I’d be lying if I told ya I was fine when I was older
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| I’m puffin on the Doja kill smoking like a stoner still
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| Chorus:
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| Yeah, sometimes I look into the mirror I see me and I don’t like it
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| I never thought they’d be a time when I would have to write this
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| But I’m different on the inside it’s hard to explain
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| And if you see me smiling I’m trying to cover up the pain
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| Cause deep down I’m hurting sick of trying to fit in, hey
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| Sick of trying to be like him man, when I was just a kid
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| I was down on myself I never thought that I could get through
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| The smallest kid at my school and I was so far from cool
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| Just searching trying to find the right place for me
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| No cable TV and no new Jordan’s on my feet
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| No girl by my side I don’t wanna be alive
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| Back then I was so sad but I’m so glad that I survived
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| Cause struggle makes ya stronger look at me I’m living proof
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| If I can do it anyone could too I wouldn’t lie to you
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| I was the shyest dude and I used to be so afraid
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| Now I’m flowing crazy on the stage I came a long way
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