Lyrics Burdened - Portals

Burdened

Nothing feels right
I’m always constantly searching for a reason to stay alive
Time after time
The depression grabs a hold of me and carves me with a fucking knife
Things will never change, I’ve always been this way
I’m just a byproduct of young life gone to waste
Things will never change, I’ve always been this way
I’m just a dead man walking
You fucking coward
Eternal suffering, forever pained
Why do I always have to feel this way?
Every day just feels the same
Always searching for a feeling that I will never regain
I’ve spent my life wallowing in misery
Washed up, lifeless, drowning in my apathy
Years have been spent building up a hardened shell
Fighting losing battles, and yet still, no one can ever tell
This is Hell
I am just a fucking waste
Dead to a world that never cared for me
A soulless being
I never feel a thing
Dead to a world, a world that never fucking cared for me
Disassociation.
The burden of a heavy mind
Decomposing while my body still stays alive
Rotting away.
Still staying the same
I’m just counting down the minutes 'til I reach my final day
Just fucking end it all
Withering into nothing as
My mind slips into a haze
Misery develops into twisted senses of normality
And I could use the company
But some things never change
Forever burdened
Forever drained