Lyrics Letters - Plans

Letters

All of a sudden I miss everyone I used to know
How it felt so rough
We still keep in touch, but it’s not the same anymore
So I called you up just to see how you’ve been
You said you’d fallen in love, you couldn’t believe it
But your parents still hate the way that you turned out
I could use a little chaos at night
I’ve got a half tank of gas, a paycheck at midnight
We could get drunk on the roof
Set off fireworks like we used to do
I’ve got nothing better to do as far as your concerned
Cause when it’s over, it’s over
We can’t get it back
We can’t change the past and
It’s expected, I’m not that upset
Wish I had a way to hold on to what’s left of me
(You're resonating in the back of my brain)
It’s not like you know
(It's not your fault)
I crumbled and buckled at the knees
I walked home alone again
Just talking to myself
I broke down in a parking lot, I left you buried there
Tonight I’ll get my head on straight
I started pacing back and forth
I can feel you hesitate, get up and walk away
I started taking swings at anything
Just needed something to hit me back
The door understood my process
Beneath my shattered bones and broken glass
I let you use me like a habit
Now I need you like an addict
I"ll get up when I am through
I’ll get up when I come out of this
I cannot be your something
I’m sick of being convenient