| I’m an old man now, and a lonesome man in Kansas
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| But not afraid
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| To speak my lonesomeness in a car
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| Because not only my lonesomeness
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| It’s Ours, all over America
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| O tender fellows-
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| & spoken lonesomeness is Prophecy
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| In the moon 100 years ago or in
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| The middle of Kansas now
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| It’s not the vast plains mute our mouths
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| That fill at midnite with ecstatic language
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| When our trembling bodies hold each other
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| Breast to breast on a mattress-
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| Not the empty sky that hides
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| The feeling from our faces
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| Nor our skirts and trousers that conceal
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| The bodylove emanating in a glow of beloved skin
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| White smooth abdomen down to the hair
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| Between our legs
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| It’s not a God that bore us that forbid
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| Our Being, like a sunny rose
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| All red with naked joy
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| Between our eyes & bellies, yes
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| All we do is for this frightened thing
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| We call Love, want and lack-
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| Fear that we aren’t the one whose body could be
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| Beloved of all the brides of Kansas City
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| Kissed all over by every boy of Wichita-
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| O but how many in their solitude weep aloud like me-
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| On the bridge over Republican River
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| Almost in tears to know
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| How to speak the right language-
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| On the frosty broad road
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| Uphill between highway embankments
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| I search for the language
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| That is also yours-
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| Almost all our language has been taxed by war
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| Radio antennae high tension
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| Wires ranging from Junction City across the plains-
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| Highway cloverleaf sunk in a vast meadow
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| Lanes curving past Abilene
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| To Denver filled with old
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| Heroes of love-
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| To Wichita where McClure’s mind
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| Burst into animal beauty
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| Drunk, getting laid in a car
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| In a neon misted street
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| 15 years ago-
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| To Independence where the old man’s still alive
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| Who loosed the bomb that’s slaved all human consciousness
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| And made the body universe a place of fear-
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| Now, speeding along the empty plain
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| No giant demon machine
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| Visible on the horizon
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| But tiny human trees and wooden houses at the sky’s edge
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| I claim my birthright!
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| Reborn forever as long as Man
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| In Kansas or other universe-Joy
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| Reborn after the vast sadness of War Gods!
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| A lone man talking to myself, no house in the brown vastness to hear
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| Imaging the throng of Selves
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| That make this nation one body of Prophecy
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| Languaged by Declaration as Pursuit of
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| Happiness!
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| I call all Powers of imagination
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| To my side in this auto to make Prophecy
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| All Lords
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| Of human kingdoms to come
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| Shambu Bharti Baba naked covered with ash
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| Khaki Baba fat-bellied mad with the dogs
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| Dehorahava Baba who moans Oh how wounded, How wounded
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| Sitaram Onkar Das Thakur who commands
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| Give up your desire
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| Satyananda who raises two thumbs in tranquillity
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| Kali Pada Guha Roy whose yoga drops before the void
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| Shivananda who touches the breast and says OM
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| Srimata Krishnaji of Brindaban who says take for your guru
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| William Blake the invisible father of English visions
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| Sri Ramakrishna master of ecstasy eyes
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| Half closed who only cries for his mother
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| Chaitanya arms upraised singing & dancing his own praise
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| Merciful Chango judging our bodies
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| Durga-Ma covered with blood
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| Destroyer of battlefield illusions
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| Million-faced Tathagata gone past suffering
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| Preserver Harekrishna returning in the age of pain
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| Sacred Heart my Christ acceptable
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| Allah the Compassionate One
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| Jaweh Righteous One
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| All Knowledge-Princes of Earth-man, all
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| Ancient Seraphim of heavenly Desire, Devas, yogis
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| & holymen I chant to-
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| Come to my lone presence
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| Into this Vortex named Kansas
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| I lift my voice aloud
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| Make Mantra of American language now
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| I here declare the end of the War!
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| Ancient days' Illusion!-
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| And pronounce words beginning my own millennium
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| Let the States tremble
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| Let the Nation weep
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| Let Congress legislate its own delight
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| Let the President execute his own desire-
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| This Act done by my own voice
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| Nameless Mystery-
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| Published to my own senses
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| Blissfully received by my own form
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| Approved with pleasure by my sensations
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| Manifestation of my very thought
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| Accomplished in my own imagination
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| All realms within my consciousness fulfilled
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| 60 miles from Wichita
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| Near El Dorado
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| The Golden One
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| In chill earthly mist
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| Houseless brown farmland plains rolling heavenward
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| In every direction
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| One midwinter afternoon Sunday called the day of the Lord-
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| Pure Spring Water gathered in one tower
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| Where Florence is
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| Set on a hill
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| Stop for tea & gas |