| These thoughts, only a symptom to pave way
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| Full-fledged addiction it unfolds and takes shape
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| Not to the bottle that I know I now crave
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| But the existence I pray that won’t take me
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| God you know I’m trying to be better off sober
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| Trying just to get over the guilt that I can’t get control of
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| Instilled by pain I can’t get a hold on
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| If only I could pick myself up
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| I’d learn to prove you wrong
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| I’ve been holding back
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| This feeling that I’m all alone
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| This infection has changed and reshaped me
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| I’m ashamed and afraid you’ll replace me
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| Every breath I take laced with complacency
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| Plaguing my brain, there’s no escaping this
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| How have I sunk this low
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| Failing to breathe
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| I can’t breathe
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| I’m losing control
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| If only I could pick myself up
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| I’d learn to prove you wrong
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| I’ve been holding back
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| This feeling that I’m all alone
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| If only I could pick myself up
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| I’d learn to prove you wrong
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| I’ve been holding back
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| This feeling that I’m all alone
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| Look me in the eye, tell me I am fine
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| My thoughts bury me alive
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| Look me in the eye, tell me I am fine
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| My thoughts bury me alive
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| Look me in the eye, tell me I am fine
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| My thoughts bury me alive
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| Bury me alive
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| If it’s all in my head, why I’m alive all the while
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| I wish I was dead
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| Why am I alive
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| Why am I alive |