Lyrics Denial - Ouija Macc

Denial

I don’t know
I don’t fuccin know
I would cry myself to sleep if I could keep my eyelids closed
Oh my heart is dead and now my chest is haunted by its ghost
Bitches got they claws all over my body playing tug-of-war
Fucc em though
Sicc and tired of struggling watching em fighting to find my soul
That tire (?) of smoke escaped my carcass years ago
These creatures feeding on the sorrow of a juggalo
My life done flashed before my eyes I lost my memory ago
Lil' lo
Learning how to tie the rope
Can’t get lessons from mistakes if I’m repressing them to cope
Giving a fucc about all of my therapist and what these bitches be thinking they
know
I feel nothing suicide note
Empty in my life oooh
Knoccin' on heavens door
Ain’t nobody answering
Sitting here all alone
Heaven won’t let me in
Calling God on the phone
No, he ain’t answering
Where am I suppose to go
Heaven won’t let me in
I don’t know
I don’t think I care
Not a single prayer I’ve ever said has got me anywhere
All I got is motherfuccas plotting on me everywhere
I don’t think its fair
So I clean my carbon and I clean the air yeah
Ima get my money and make sure my kids is straight
These bustas gon' do what the built to do and that is hate
They imitate
I do my fuccin thing
My purposed fate
Im following my goals
My destiny is right in front of me aye
The streets done made a savage out of me ever since a little kid I said that
shit on Family
Straight out of naked city out the muthafuccin' gate
For my killaz round the way
Fucc my haters by the way
Ayyy
I ain’t never say a fuccin thing that I don’t mean
I ain’t never ran from nothing (?)
And fucc what anybody saying about a G
How can God forgive the shit I did up in these streets
Knoccin' on heavens door
Ain’t nobody answering
Sitting here all alone
Heaven won’t let me in
Calling God on the phone
No, he ain’t answering
Where am I suppose to go
Heaven won’t let me in (x2)
I played the hand that I was dealt and tried to fill the plates
I was just too busy trying to survive this world you helped create
And how many times can you watch me fuccin break after fuccin break,
break the fuccin mirror when I see my face
God I leave this place muthafucca aye
Fucc it I dont wanna be in this motherfucca anyway