Lyrics Alive - Oncue

Alive

Why’s it 2 o’clock in the morning
Outside all I hear is your car starting
The dogs barking, thinking the same as me
Why you up at this hour?
Why you gotta leave?
Yesterday I found baking soda in your trunk
Tellin' me it was there to take away all the skunk
All the mildew and mold
You lie like Phil do
You hold your stash so you can cut down your coke
Eleven years old, oh I was so young
Never did know, damn I was so dumb
Is this hereditary?
For me to fail again
Walk around my own house living with a alien
I swear, this ain’t my fathers face, nah it ain’t his skin
What type of fuckin' place is this to raise a kid up in?
Tryin' get through, all the shit I’ve been
All I know, me and Momma just try live again
Haley, we made it out alive
Don’t tell me, we bout to lose the fight
Just one more, oh, one more night
We made it out, we made it out this mother fucker alive
I swear when you left a part of me died
All those nights with Mom, watching her cry
Havin' a hard time drying my own eyes
Fightin' to wake up every day tryin' to keep it all inside
You should have saw her, she so weak back then
I thought you were dead, we didn’t speak back then
Thrown us both away for a motel and a crack pipe
It was probably all so perfect in a past life
My songs were the only thing to make me act right
Grammys probably so proud, I chose my path right
All those letters you wrote mom when you black out
Picking me up from sport games all cracked out
So lost that, I needed a signal
Thinkin' bout all the shit, me and Mom been through
Crack these jokers windows thinking it would get you
I’m sorry if it hurts, this the only thing I vent through
Haley, we made it out alive
Don’t tell me, we bout to lose the fight
Just one more, oh, one more night
We made it out, we made it out this mother fucker alive
I know you take back, the act going on, blackmailin' Mom
I know you give back, the insurance money, admit you were wrong
What if you had to live with the fact I chose the same path as you
Smoking, poppin' pills, dropping out of school
I forgive, I definitely don’t forget
& I ain’t done healing, am I suppose to yet?
Sorry I write these fuckin' records where I bash you
But you made your bed and sometimes see I have to
Medicate myself, man of the house
Since you and Phil left, I designate myself
Yeah Mommy I fuckin' love you
No one gun' hurt you no more, angels above you
Dad I forgive you, I pray you remain clean
I’m just glad you’re alive to see me live out this dream
Haley, we made it out alive
Don’t tell me, we bout to lose the fight
Just one more, oh, one more night
We made it out, we made it out this mother fucker alive