Lyrics Tears - Odd Squad Family

Tears

This that ride into the nightlife
This that hurt feelings cry until you night night
This that therapy session to find a bright light
Suffering mental abuse won’t make you like life
I’ve contemplated many times If the purpose of my life
Was to commit my suicide I know the bullies they would love it
They would show me where the gun is
Probably laugh as I would die but ain’t giving them the last laugh
Before I went to school the knife came out my backpack
I pray to god just let me make it through my last class
Tryna make it out my struggle, no use for a fast pass
And I’m still here working at it
Looking back on life how I cope with this and manage
Long-time ago I turned to dope to numb the damage
It ain’t help, I quit cuz I’m more than just an addict
More than just a crippled, doctors wondered how I’d walk
I’ve been asking God why me since I could talk
Living this rough has turned me something far from soft
Now I preach I’m a survivor, till god turns my switch to off
It was my choice to make the best
Glass half full, life is just a perfect mess
Thankful for my life, no my pain I won’t forget
And my biggest blessing yet is that I haven’t met death
I feel like I have never felt at home
Inside my own mind, I can’t be left alone
I feel the divide between my flesh and soul
I look to the skies I hope it lets me know
Is there somebody that’s watching this by the episode
Is there somebody behind it all of my ebbs and flows
We were thrown to the fire so they just let us roast
And gave us a life that we had never chose
Since a younging knew I’m off a bit
I tried to solve em but I don’t know what my problem is
I tried bravado but I’m always lacking confidence
Unless it’s in my art I put my heart out on the carpet wit
I’m the king of overthinking things
Even in my deepest dreams, cant be at peace it seems
Can hear the screams try not to listen when the demons speak
Try to pray but I can’t even think they say the meanest things
So I doubt myself
And sometimes I wish that I could live without myself
Who needs a bully when I’m best at putting down myself
But still, they’ll push till I really go and out myself
And it’s hard for me to balance it
Still can’t drown it out but I just learned to turn it down a bit
Never did learn how to handle it
Didn’t beat it I just channeled it
Can I tell you what hurt the most as a kid?
When you look in the mirror and ask why am I like this?
I was born albino man there’s nothing I could’ve did
To make it worse you get to school and they saying the same shit
They cracking jokes some hit harder than most
You try to laugh but then tears still show
You just wanna make friends but they think you’re gross, you’ve heard it all so
much you believe it to be so
The odd one out the bunch
Everybody called me fat so I hated lunch
Everybody called me names so I picked one and ran with it
Things change like the seasons it wasn’t easy to handle it
But I did and stood on my ten I told myself you may fall but I Val to never quit
Yo eyesight ain’t good but try again and one day you’ll be as swift as the wind
But no matter how dark it gets I’ll never be afraid of the dark again
Having confidence in myself is an accomplishment
Everybody deserves a little time to vent
Realize there’s thin lines between opposites but that’s what you attract so
stay positive
They say shoot for the stars so I’m lobbing it
My lights gone shine no matter what time it is
You heard me