Song information On this page you can find the lyrics of the song Token of My Affection, artist - Nems. Album song Gorilla Monsoon, in the genre Иностранный рэп и хип-хоп
Date of issue: 30.05.2019
Age restrictions: 18+
Record label: LYFER GANG
Token of My Affection |
You’d think after all these years of being clean I’d get my feelings back |
Right? |
So why it don’t feel like that |
It’s like God built my heart with a shield attached |
Shawty always wanna argue, I can’t deal with that |
So instead of facing my problems, I walk away |
And I leave the relationship in an awkward way |
I used to talk about rape like it was funny |
And then they raped the woman that was close to me |
Now I listen to those tracks and I can’t believe |
That a younger me could lack such compassion and empathy |
And I would probably give a kidney |
Just for my female fans they could forgive me |
The younger me would probably think I was soft |
But I look back at them days and I know I was lost, uh |
Living life without a care in the world |
So, how could I ever care 'bout a girl? |
When I couldn’t even care for myself |
Tryna numb the pain, taking every drug on the shelf |
How could you forgive me when I can’t forgive myself? |
Uh |
Thank you for your patience |
All these years clean and I’m still isolating |
I’m sorry I kept you waiting |
Shit, fuck, run that back, uh |
This a token of my affection |
Wrote these thoughts down on this paper while you were resting |
As you get older, your life takes a direction |
When it comes to my love, know there’s never a question, uh |
This is a token of my affection |
When you staring in the mirror, don’t recognize your reflection |
Just know you gonna be great like you always been destined |
Keep me by your side you’ll never need no protection |
A little girl is waking up this morning going to her stepfather that touched |
her last night |
And she gotta smile in front of her mother, sister and her brother |
Just like everything is alright when it’s not |
Baby girl, I wish I was there to make you special |
I wish I was there to make him respect you |
But overall I wish I could jump to that kitchen table |
Sit right next to you and protect you |
Just know half of the kids at school are going through the same thing |
And it’s not your fault, so you can blame him |
He’s gonna get whats coming to him |
'Cause karma catches up with everyone and it knows what he’s doing |
How could you selfishly ruin a life and diminish it? |
There’s nothing more precious than a child’s innocence |
All the issues that stem from mental imprisonment |
How could you stand yourself and live with it? |
I promise you, if I ever catch him I’m a motherfuckin' finish him |
Come here, nigga |
No, no, I promise, no, I prom— I promise! |
This is a token of my affection |
Keep me by your side you’ll never need no protection |
I’m here to make right what is destined |
I love you |
Yeah |
You even remember half the shit? |
Yeah |
How’d it start? |
I’ma, I’ma go back |
I’ma go back to where |
Hey, hello |
Ay, we’re doin' a skit here |
Relax, relax, lady |
I’ma go back to where |
A mutual friend of ours |
I gave him a CD |
That’s way back |
That’s like |
Niggas don’t even know |
Well, we’ll get to that |
That’s right |
We’ll get to that |
Eight years ago, right? |
Yes, and I remember it had two fire beats |
One of them is Ebonics |
That we used just now |
Yeah |
Hundred percent |
And the other one is Bang, Bang, Bidat that I did on Planet of the Apes shit |
Hundred percent |
But I was like, yo, the shit is on a CD |
Hundred percent |
Like, I need it in email |
It was like, yo, Frank don’t email |
He only give you beat CDs |
Yeah |
I’m like, yo, what the fuck is that, man? |
Aight, so then that happened |
Sittin' on those beats for mad long |
Word |
The Ebonics beat I sent to Necro to try to get on |
Word, I remember, I remember hearin' through the grapevine that you were gonna |
try and get a couple people on that |
I had even sent it to Immortal Technique, I’m not sure |
But that was my, that’s who I had in mind |
Boom |
But so, how did the album come about? |
Aight, so check it out, this is how it came about |
I had the shit with MTV |
Yes |
You know what I’m sayin'? |
So, boom, I had the deal with MTV |
And they wanted me to get |
They wanted me to get a cast |
Yeah |
So I went |
I had the show |
I had the show, but poli-tricks, you know what I’m sayin'? |
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah |
So long story short |
Short story long |
What happened was |
Is um, I’m like, okay |
I picked, I picked out of, I already picked out two people |
And I’m like, I need Nems |
So, boom, so I hit you up, I’m like, «Yo, I got this situation goin' on» |
Blazay-blah, you really didn’t believe me at first |
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah |
You know what I’m sayin'? |
'Cause mad niggas come like, «I got this goin' on, I got this TV show about to |
come out, niggas is lyin'» |
I remember son, I told y’all |
Then you put me in contact with the nigga Ryan |
Right, right right |
Then I was like, «This nigga real» |
And you was like, you was like |
«I got a TV show too, nigga, Gorilla TV on YouTube» |
And I was like, I was like, «Aight, no doubt, no doubt» |
You know what I’m sayin'? |
I was like, «Lemme just get my man a call 'em» and then he get that conference |
call goin' on |
And, and then he’ll see what it is |
So boom |
So that went down, right |
Okay, then what happened was like |
We linked up, we linked up and I was in Crown Heights, I was livin' in Crown |
Heights |
I was over there on Pacific between Ocean and New York |
Boom, like, yo |
We had to do the, the conference call |
Yeah |
It was them MTV niggas |
Yeah, yeah, yeah |
So you was like, boom |
I’ma come through |
I’ma come through and we gonna, we gon', we gonna build on what we gonna do, |
you know what I’m sayin'? |
Or how we gonna work this out when we talk to these people |
So boom, we was buildin' |
We was just shootin' the shit, you know what I mean? |
And then you was like, «Yo, you know what would be ill?» |
And I was like, «What's that?» |
You was like, «Yo, your beats and my bars» |
And I was like, yo, I was like, son, like, yo |
I was like, «Yo, that’s a, that’s a great idea, bro» |
I was like, that’s a |
'Cause originally I had in mind, I was like |
Yo, we do like five, six joints |
I figured the TV show was gonna come out |
Right, right, right |
We could drop it at the same time |
Right |
Do a tour, all of that |
'Cause, yo, on the strength |
On the strength |
A hundred, a hundred, a hundred percent, a hundred percent |
True story |
I was, I was thinkin' like |
Yo, if anything, man, like |
I gotta do an album for Nems |
You know what I’m sayin'? |
Like, for real, I was like |
This shit just happened organically, like |
That, like |
What I mean |
Boom |
Like |
What happened was |
Was, aight, aight |
Time passes, right |
And you gave me a CD with mad beats |
Nah, but time had passed and you kept |
Hey, yo, hit me, these fucking beats |
Yeah, 'cause we was also |
And then the show |
Then you sent me mad beats |
And I was like, yo |
What am I gonna do with a fuckin' CD of beats, nigga? |
It’s twenty, it mighta been twenty, sixteen, twenty-seven |
Right, right |
Yo, what am I gonna do with a CD full of beats, nigga? |
My car don’t even got a CD player |
I don’t got a CD player in my crib |
Like, it was |
I was like, yo |
You gotta find a way to email me these beats 'cause I can’t go to the studio |
with these fuckin' |
With a CD and record over 'em |
That’s unprofessional |
That’s it |
Then it took, like, a couple months |
Then you finally got the beats to me through email |
Right, right, right, right, right |
And I just started goin' through 'em like boom |
Then, then the first joint I did was the Timb boots shit |
Boots upside of your head |
Yeah |
That was the first one, but once I did that I was like |
Yo, this joint is stupid hard, everybody I played it for was like |
Yo, this shit is crazy |
Know what I’m sayin'? |
So from that point, fuckin', like |
I just started doin' joints then you just started sendin' me more joints |
through the email |
Finally you caught up with the times, and then |
Yo, and then it moved from five or six songs, shit |
Nah, nah, it wasn’t even that |
I hit you with ten joints at first |
Yeah, yeah |
And I swear I think you picked like seven |
Yeah |
'Cause I was like, I was, I was like |
Yo, I’ma, I was like |
I’m goin' to the, to of the top of the line |
And I’m just gonna throw Nems on the top of the line |
You know what I mean? |
Yup |
Then boom, boom, in the end it was like |
You was like |
Yo, 'cause I also was recordin' an album |
I was recordin' my alpha album |
I had like, couple songs done |
And I was like, yo lemme just bang this out real quick |
It’s gonna be like six joints, we’re gonna do it mad quick |
And then you just kept sendin' me fire and I was like |
Yo, aight, now I gotta do this |
Then that happened to be ten joints |
And then eleven, you know what I’m sayin' |
Then I just was like |
Then the show is a wrap, you know what I’m sayin'? |
The show is a wrap and I already was like |
Yo, you know |
Now I’m just fuckin' stuck with this loser |
Hahahahahaha |
No, but, I was like, yo |
This shit is fire, know what I’m sayin'? |
Like, these shits is fire |
It became a main priority |
'Cause in the meantime, did Gahbage and once I did Gahbage and I started |
performin' it |
I was like, yo, God |
That’s it |
No matter where I go I perform that shit |
Everyone’s like, yo, where is it? |
Where can I get it? |
And I was like, it ain’t out yet, chill, fall back |
You can’t get this shit |
Yo, I been to certain places and |
You know me, you know, me havin' a little name |
Know what I’m sayin'? |
Know me |
But just havin' a |
Those that know |
I remember I was in |
I was chillin' one night, you was havin' dinner somewhere |
And I was with my man and he |
He hit up |
He hit up some of his peoples |
And they came through and you was like |
Yo, this the dude that did Gahbage |
And they was like |
Word? |
You did that? |
You know what I’m sayin'? |
And I was like, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, that’s me |
You know what I mean? |
So I was like |
That’s when I was like |
Yeah |
And then |
Every time I see the footage of you performin' it |
And I’m like |
Yo, that’s the joint, that’s the joint right there |
I was like |
And then I started doin' some real joints on there |
I’m just like, yo |
This shit, this is it right here |
Then now the shit is finished and the shit is |
Shit is next level, nigga |
Yeah, nah, this, this album |
This is like |
This |
This |
Aight, you know what I’m sayin'? |
I been puttin' |
This is probably my |
This is |
This is gonna be my first |
You know, joint that I get to do |
With a rapper |
'Cause, you know |
I’m, I, um |
See, you see how, you see what I’m talkin' about? |
You know what I’m sayin'? |
Um, this is gonna be the first joint I do with like |
You know, a rap I did the beat tapes and all of that |
But this right here, this is like somethin' really special, man |
And it’s Brooklyn, too |
Yup |
You know what I’m sayin'? |
That is Brooklyn, know what I’m sayin'? |
Big time Brooklyn |
You know what I’m sayin'? |
And it’s Brooklyn, too, you know what I mean? |
That alone, this is real special to me |
Hundred percent |
Know what I mean? |
It’s just really special to me |
That’s a fact |
And it’s like, I’ve given people beats before |
You feel me? |
And usually, bro, like, nine times, nine and a half times out of ten I’m like |
Nah, I take the shit back |
Son |
My word to you |
Every time you brought, you sent me back |
I was like |
You knew the, you knew the time signatures |
You knew like, when to come in, you knew what the chorus was |
'Cause I give somebody a beat, right? |
Yup |
I give somebody a beat |
And they be rhymin' over the chorus |
I’m like, how you don’t know that’s the chorus |
Niggas don’t even know that either, because |
You sent me the joints done already, like |
They wasn’t tracked out |
What you sent me was basically like I had it on the CD |
So what I had to do is I had to figure out aight |
This part is for the chorus, oh, this got a drop right here |
Alright, I’m gonna say some ill shit right here so it drops out |
So I had to write my rhymes around the beats |
Niggas take the beats and make the beats around the rhymes |
I did it the opposite way and wrote my rhymes to how the beat was, |
you know what I’m sayin'? |
So if this beat had fuckin', eighteen bars and then the chorus, I had to write |
eighteen bars and then the chorus |
And then I just feel like |
You know, it got, it sounds grimy 'cause it’s supposed to |
You hear the hisses in it, like it’s bein' played on a tape |
'Cause it’s supposed to |
Word |
Know what I’m sayin'? |
All the samples that I chose outta the samples that have been done on other |
songs 'cause you freaked it better than the original song, but it’s also like |
Payin' homage to us growin' up and the classic joints that was growin' up, like |
You know what I’m sayin' |
And the thing is, what’s crazy is, it just happened like that |
Hundred percent |
It wasn’t meant to be like that |
We wasn’t like, yo |
We gonna, uh, aight, this, like, aight, we gonna |
We’re gonna do like a throwback |
We’re gonna do like a tribute-type |
Nah, bro |
This shit just happened |
Yeah |
You know what I’m sayin'? |
This wasn’t like |
We didn’t premeditate it, you know what I’m sayin'? |
Like, this shit just happened |
I think, I think, I think that’s because |
Both of us, you’re a student of the game |
On the beatmakin' side, I’m a student of the game |
Just music, not even you on the beat |
A full student like both of us are true students of the game |
And I feel like |
That just made like, my style is not attributed to one rapper |
Like some niggas don’t never leave the house and they whole style sounds like |
Jay-Z |
Know what I’m sayin'? |
'Cause they just listen to Jay-Z |
They come outside, that’s all they rap about |
'Cause they never did nothin' |
We from New York, more importantly, Brooklyn |
Word |
And, and we from the era where you had to be outside to get your name up, like |
We couldn’t just spit no freestyles |
No internet |
Yeah |
No internet |
You had to be outside, like |
You had to be outside to get your name up |
You had to take the train |
You had to get on |
You had to get on the train, man |
All types of shit |
Had to go to the city |
That shit was just like, yo |
We, we |
The shit is like, uh |
An homage, homage, however you wanna say it to New York City |
Word |
Know what I’m sayin' |
I mean, without bein' said because you could hear it |
Hundred percent |
Without like, without, without even sayin' that |
Like you could hear that |
From, from the vocals to the beats to the accent, the whole shit |
The whole shit |
You know what I’m sayin'? |
You know, you got |
We show you what, we show you |
It’s the sound of what we come from |
You know what I mean? |
And not for nothin', this shit is phat |
Full circle |
This is |
Thank you, yo, Nems, I was just gonna say that |
This shit came back full circle, man |
Niggas is tired of that fuckin' |
Exactly |
That bullshit |
Exactly |
And I ain’t even gonna say that mumble shit |
'Cause it goes way beyond that, before that |
Hundred percent |
And this bullshit after it |
And it came back full circle, man |
So what we, what we do naturally |
Is, is back in the forefront, man, you know what I mean? |
So it’s a beautiful thing |
So we could drop this album now and |
And, and |
And not be like, damn |
We wanna drop this and this shit might fuckin' |
Might not pass through the cracks, it’s gonna |
You know |
Like it’s gonna be in the shadows of certain shit |
Nah, because this shit came back full circle |
My whole career, man, everything I been tryna do right |
Yo, what up |
It’s good |
What up, what up, what up |
Good, baby |
Right, right |
That’s my man Nems |
That video’s fire my G |
Y’all did it right |
Three in one? |
That’s ill |
Yeah, yeah |
Gotta keep flippin' them original stories like that |
Hundred percent |
Word, word, that was dope |
I was like, yeah |
Yeah, that’s a fact |
Hahahaha |
Play that shit again |
That’s the whole point |
Hahaha |
Play that shit again |
I watched that shit a couple of times |