Lyrics We Carry the Feeling - Nana Grizol

We Carry the Feeling

Search through the sky for a sign or a simple suggestion
I waited all night but I was fast asleep when it knocked upon my door
It gets lonely here when it’s just me and my questions
Jetsam in the ether, pulsar’s pull not drawing anymore
I remember it like yesterday
I thought that you were lovely I just didn’t know what to say
There’s all these protocols that get in the way
We were on the edge of seventeen
All we knew to say were things we didn’t mean
I still impressed you with my wit it seemed
I learned so much from magazines and television
About how men relate through rules to tell them how
And oh I saw the signals with precision
The moments when our habits faltered
Omens of desires unhaltered
It wasn’t long 'til we were sharing beds
With different dressings on the dreams appearing in our heads
I wanted a lover you a brother instead
Either way these things were hard to name
Never quite knowing did we feel the same
After a while all I could feel was shame
Stef she said I shouldn’t see you anymore
Clyde he tried to call me on the phone — to say —
Some loves are labors lost oh but I’m never sure
There’s nothing they could say that made me
Ever really want to be alone
And I felt a funny face, was a worthless waste, caught a hopeless case
For sweet boys on sweaty days, don’t know what we craved, it remains unspoken
The longing outlived the place, our artistic taste, it outlived the clothes we
wore
When I feel uncertain now, I remember how we carry the feeling
But those were stories we saved for dark
That lost the plot before the bending arc
Except once when we were drunk and then you hit me hard
And so I faded to a distant star
In the brightest company but everything was so far
Thinking lifetimes pass us, gaseous, things just stay as they are
I tried to chalk it up to expectation
Or believe that what I wanted was just wrong
But now I better understand assimilation
I closed ranks among the ones who felt I
Never quite belonged among them
And I felt a funny face, was a worthless waste, caught a hopeless case
For sweet boys on sweaty days, don’t know what we craved, it remains unspoken
The longing outlived the place, our artistic taste, it outlived the clothes we
wore
When I feel uncertain now, I remember how we carry the feeling