| Fresh outta high school
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| Glad cus he hated it
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| Everybody in the senior class would call him gay but it
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| It never bothered him
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| His name Jonathon
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| Best friend Julie she was cool she went to Prom with him
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| The principle said prom was no place for a queer couple
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| If he showed up with a boy then there’d be real trouble
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| Empty threats
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| But what really got to him is that his boyfriend didn’t wanna go to prom with
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| him
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| Boyfriend Roderick kept his secret closeted
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| Scared to come out into this world of zero tolerance
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| Kinda popular
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| Played a lot of politics
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| Jonathon was book smart
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| Just received a scholarship
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| Off to college
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| Wanted Roderick to follow him
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| He see him in the halls but Rod would never acknowledge him
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| Away from school though he was so affectionate
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| Jon had a good thing, no use in upsetting it
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| Besides at college everything would be different
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| Everyone is educated no one would be trippin
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| He had it all figured out plus his parents were excited just to get him out the
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| house
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| So they bought him a ticket
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| Even bought one for Roderick
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| Said to leave the end of summer they would pay for all of it
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| So excited on his way to work at In-N-Out
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| End of the shift he drove straight up to Roderick’s house
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| He hopped out
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| Saw him with his crew
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| He walked right up
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| He was ready to share the news
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| It had been a few days
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| He forgot how much he missed him
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| So exited that he moved in and kissed him
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| Roderick dissed him
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| Threw him to the floor
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| Said, «You faggot what you have to go and do that for? |
| «Looked at his homies, «Ya'll know I’m not gay»
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| They just shook their heads
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| Turned and walked away
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| («Fuck. Fucks wrong with you? «)
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| Now he’s screaming at Jonathon
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| «What the hell is wrong with him? |
| ««Ok it’s over then let’s be honest then.
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| They never knew the real you they’re not your real friends.»
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| He drove away and vowed to never speak to him again
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| It had been a few weeks
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| Before Jon left to college
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| He thought that they should speak
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| Scared to do it for fear of rejection
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| But either way he knew the world would never accept them
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| (Dear America, When you tell gay Americans that they cannot serve their country
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| openly or marry the person that they love, you’re telling that to kids too)
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| Roderick was seventeen
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| In n out of jail since ten
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| Never knew his father
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| Or spent time with any other men
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| He started runnin in them circles with the hustlers
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| Gang bangin' dope slingin'
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| Had some loyal customers
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| Locked him up at a very young age
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| Found religion and it ended all his criminal ways
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| He also found his first boyfriend when he was locked up
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| Came home conflicted
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| So he really didn’t talk much
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| The beginnings of a double life
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| The chaplain back in juvie used to tell him that it wasn’t right
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| His bond with God was so strong it was until he met Jon
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| And it felt so perfect
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| But suffering eternal damnation,
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| Was it worth it?
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| He still had to see him it had been two years
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| He knew that he could never leave him
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| So he lived in fear of God’s wrath
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| The preacher said God loves us all except fags
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| That made him so mad he started packing his bags
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| Said he’s run away with Jon until it went bad
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| («Like, did you know, did you hear about him? I mean like, Jonathon,
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| he’s my friend, he’s my gay best friend, of course, but like, Roderick?
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| I fucking kissed him. |
| He tried to fuck me! |
| What the fuck? |
| I hope I don’t have
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| anything. |
| Should I go get tested? |
| What a fucking faggot. |
| I fucking hate that
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| piece of shit faggot. |
| What a fucking bitch. |
| Fucking cunt. |
| I fucking hate him.»)
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| The big incident
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| Jon slipped in front of his friends and started kissing him
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| Now everything was different
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| He shut him out
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| Never thought about forgiving him
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| Until he got that text
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| Jon wanted to meet up the day after next
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| They met at In-N-Out
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| On his dinner break but he was so mad he couldn’t look him in the face
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| Soon as he spoke they both started crying
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| Said he missed him so much it felt like he was dying
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| Jon said, «I can’t describe how much I missed you»
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| That’s when Roderick pulled his pistol
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| Shot him right between the eyes
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| Then turned it on himself cus he refused to live a lie
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| Suicide was against his beliefs but he knew it was the only way they’d ever
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| find peace |