
Date of issue: 06.06.2019
Age restrictions: 18+
Song language: English
Holding on to Smoke |
I'm tired of feeling comatose |
I've lost the me that I loved most |
I'm barely holding on to smoke |
I'm barely holding on to smoke |
I'm not addicted but I'm not clean |
Why do I do this to myself on repeat? |
So disconnected from my own reality |
Am I man or machine? |
If I give, will you take? |
As I lie for the taste |
I just fuck it up |
As you lap it up |
(Go) |
Through flesh and bone |
I walk alone |
(Go) |
If I run, will I fade away? |
'Cause I don't wanna leave it behind |
In all my pride, all my shame |
I find strength enough to show you |
I may bend but I won't break |
Because I define who I |
Define who I become |
I'm miss the me that I have not met |
Choking in silence on the words left unsaid |
I feel a sickness for a home I've never been |
And I exist in black and white but now I'm seeing red |
I built a shelter in complacency |
Locked myself in and set fire and threw away the key |
Too scared to live but I'm afraid to die |
So am I living or am I just alive? |
All my pride, all my shame |
I find strength enough to show you |
I may bend but I won't break |
I define who I become |
'Cause I'm tired of feeling comatose |
I've lost the me that I loved most |
I'm barely holding on to smoke |
But I'm holding on, I'm holding on |
Broken, I'm holding on |
Driven to right the wrong |
Silent, connected yet I feel so separated |
Fallen through flesh and bone |
Frozen, I stand alone |
Deafened in silence, the voice remains |
Behind my eyes, beneath my rage |
I was struggling to get through |
Out of time and out of faith |
I define who I become |
In all my pride, all my shame |
I find strength enough to show you |
I may bend but I won't break |
'Cause I define who I |
Define who I become |
I'm tired of feeling comatose |
I lost the me that I loved most |
I'm barely holding on to smoke |
But I'm holding on, I'm holding on |
I'm tired of being human, tired of being numb |
Waiting for the holy ghost to come |
So save me from the webs that I have spun |
I'm holding on, holding on |
I'm holding on, holding on to smoke |
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