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C.C.S.

I walked up to the hill where the sun was circles
I was stressed out
Passed the post office down High Street where we used to meet
Seven Mile changed substantially since I had moved away
The new owners they cut down all the trees
I don’t realize how cynical that I can be
I’m making changes to myself
I don’t always see the way I hurt you
I hurt myself too, It’s unimaginable
Never thought that I’d become this reflection that I see
And now I’m too late
But at least you’ve moved on
It feels great to escape
I’m sure you know
I can’t sing without a memory that keeps me awake
I’m doing better temporarily, temporarily
The smell of gasoline
The backyard fire on your trampoline
The moody messages that I would leave on an answering machine
I never yell much
I’m not any better
I just don’t really care
I’ve tried to make it up for years, I swear
The neighbors stared when I was locked outside of your apartment
I thought they called the cops but they were smoking weed
I thought I’d never make it out of here alive or not insane
It turns out that this is all I need
Cause when I got out I was scared and lonely
I’ve been pushing through
I’ve been staying up late in this quiet house
It’s like a hospital with better TV
I never figured that the silence could be so ordinary
So come and take me home
It’s better if I’m not around
And now I’m too late
But at least you’ve moved on
It feels great to escape, I’m sure you know
I can’t sing without a memory that keeps me awake
I’m doing better temporarily, temporarily, temporarily