Lyrics Fade Away - Mikill Pane

Fade Away

I know you hate to talk about this
But this discussion needs to happen
'Cause I’m getting really tired of this ugly weekly pattern
Of you ruining yourself because you cannot stop and think
That your adicction to all types of drugs and alcoholic drinks
Has spiralled out of control.
When I met you, it was bad enough
You don’t how often I’ve nearly left you 'cause I’ve had it up
To here with the regular comedowns
I’ve battled for a year just to get you to calm down
It’s not only the after effects that make me wonder why I care so much
You’re like a monster when you’re drunk, and you’re rarely sober
That’s why I’m scared for over half of the time
At other times, I’m angry 'cause it seems your heart’s set on dying
We’re only nineteen, but you already seem tired of life
Remember when you told me that you had a fire inside?
You also said it burns for me, and it’s a shame
Because you gradually got colder ever since I lit the flame
And I’m doing all I can for you
But it seems you can’t stand the truth
But I’m gonna tell you anyway
'Cause I don’t wanna let you fade away
And I’m doing all I can for you
But it seems you can’t stand the truth
But I’m gonna tell you anyway
And it’s like I’ve been the boyfriend that doesn’t ever sleep and lets you stay
with him
Just so your father doesn’t see you in the state you’re in
Remember when we met him?
You believed that he would take me in
But he looked me up and down and said, 'Leave her alone, you waste of skin'
You know he’s never really liked me anyway, and he
Is almost desperate to find something to blame on me
He should be thankful for the times
I called an ambulance and climbed
In with you, so I could ride with you to A & E
I don’t wanna leave you knowing that I couldn’t make you see
A brighter light 'cause every time I tried, it made you moody
I can’t focus when I finally start the day’s duties
I can’t believe I’m still getting good grades at uni
It’s like you need me, but there’s no love anymore
It’s just a repeat of what happened to my mother before
But why the fuck am I surprised?
I knew what trouble you’d cause
And now I juggle my life and your struggle with yours
I’d didn’t wanna say to much about my mum to you
So I told you a pack a lies about her, babes.
Nothing’s true
The truth is I watched helplessly as Hennesy fucked her over
Tell me, when you were seven, had you ever seen a drunken coma?
I didn’t think so
I lived in a shit home
Bullies didn’t sympathise.
I was fly-kicked 'til my ribs broke
I was only twelve.
I started to think that the world does not give a fuck
When your dad’s behind bars and your mum’s propping them up
I haven’t seen or spoken to my parents for a while now
I don’t know where they are and I never wanna find out
It ain’t been simple to forget my mum
'Cause giving you your first chance has made me feel like I’m giving her a
second one
And I refuse to do that, but I do it all the same
It’s life and death to me, but to you it’s all a game
I fell in love with you, but fear could make me fall right through
So you’ve gotta lose the bottle before I do
And I’m doing all I can for you
But it seems you can’t stand the truth
But I’m gonna tell you anyway
'Cause I don’t wanna let you fade away