Lyrics Vices - Memphis May Fire

Vices

Drowning myself every night
Me versus me has always been my biggest fight
I’ve been so confused for so long
And the answer always seems so far out of sight
So I build it up build it up on my chest
When everything is wrong and things don’t still feel right
I’m in the tunnel but I can’t see the light.
I just wanna feel whole again,
So I can let you in,
I just wanna feel whole again,
I just wanna feel whole,
Where is my self control?
x2
And I’ve been thinking this could be the end of me
Who is this person in the mirror I see?
And I have come so far, thought I was so strong,
The truth is I’ve just fed myself a lie for too long
I never thought this would be me.
But now, I’m on a brink of self destruction
How could this happen to me?
I’ve never been the type to run from anything
Run from anything.
So sick and tired of wondering
Why I borrowed the gun
My father didn’t raise me to become this
Where did I go wrong?
There is not much left of me
I can’t feel the ground beneath my feet
There is not much left of me
I made everyone around me dead
And now I’m headed to the bottom of the bottle
Just to block out the sound
God I need you now.
I’ve been thinking this could be the end of me
Who is this person in the mirror I see?
And I have come so far, thought I was so strong
The truth is I’ve just fed myself a lie for too long
This is my Vice, this is me weak.
I need love to erase this doubt
I need your help to pull me up
Sometimes I feel like I will never learn
Because the bottles always there when I have nowhere else to turn
Will I ever learn?
x2
I take another sip
The dark room that I’m in becomes dimly lit
This can’t be all there is.
And I’ve been thinking this could be the end of me
Who is this person in the mirror I see?
And I have come so far, thought I was so strong
The truth is I just fed myself a lie for too long
And the only one to blame is me.
Who have I become?
This is my desperate shout
Pull me out!
x2
God I need you now.