Lyrics Without Even Trying - McCall

Without Even Trying

Nihilistic, hold my breath
I’m catatonic in my bed
Living off of borrowed money
Like I deserve it
Wonder why nobody wants me
As if I’ve earned it yet
I don’t wanna waste your time
I don’t wanna make excuses anymore
But I can’t keep from crying
I’m sorry I can’t come out
I really hate myself right now
Gonna turn it all around but not tonight
I’m sorry I let you down
You should tape over my mouth
I’m gonna wear you out
Without even trying
Without even trying
Self-reflective to a fault
I’m always anxious when you call
Cause I’m not who I wanna be yet
And I don’t want you to see me if I’m less than prfect
I don’t wanna waste your time
I don’t wanna mak excuses anymore
But I can’t keep from crying
I’m sorry I can’t come out
I really hate myself right now
Gonna turn it all around but not tonight
I’m sorry I let you down
You should tape over my mouth
I’m gonna wear you out
Without even trying
Without even trying
Shake the voices as they plague my mind
I see it playing over again, sixty times
Wish I could just forget it, bet you wish I would
But I can see you clearly and I’m catching up