Song information On this page you can find the lyrics of the song Outburst004, artist - Manga Saint Hilare
Date of issue: 18.05.2017
Song language: English
Outburst004 |
They don’t get me, I don’t get them either |
Feel like I don’t fit in anywhere, I don’t feature |
Any of the plans and patterns, I can’t keep up |
With the in ting or the out ting either |
I’m in a class of my own, tryna learn new lessons |
With no aids or peers or teacher |
Too bad for the good youts, I was too good for the bad ones |
I couldn’t really be around either |
Time passed, reality coming at me fast |
When I couldn’t even get no breather |
Tryna get my thoughts together, wanna be better |
But my insecurities teamed up |
Oldest in my house, youngest in the crew |
I had to learn to be a leader |
I dived in too fast into a lot of things |
It’s the curse of the hungry and eager |
I had a big heart in this cruel, small world |
Being colder, that made tings easier |
Lost love and my bad luck wouldn’t ease up |
I was married to the fuckery with no prenup |
Couldn’t be no dead beat yout on the ends |
Man, I swore to God I wouldn’t be one |
Mum and Dad tryna pay these bills |
I was more concerned that my creps were greased up |
Should’ve been studying, I should’ve been saving |
I was on sets, though, tryna get wheel-ups |
Kinda went uni, sorta shot food |
Done telesales, was a part-time cleaner |
Nearly was a wasteman, I could’ve been a father |
She wasn’t ready and I wasn’t either |
All this time, man, everybody thinks that I’m gone |
All 'cause of «When I’m 'Ere» and «Heat Up» |
Oi, how wrong they were |
How lost I was |
I made her love me, then I got scared |
Then I locked her off |
She said I tried to break her 'cause I was broken |
Yeah, I probably was |
Look, I tried to be better, I had good intentions |
I swear to God |
I let things build up and I don’t share |
They’re just in my songs |
Take on everyone’s issues and ignore my own |
I was all on my ones |
I was tirelessly trying to find my tribe |
'Cause I don’t belong |
I was looking for things |
That were right there around me, all along |
How could I get this so wrong? |
Look at all the fuckery that man ah dodged |
How could I not know that I was blessed |
When all the mandem were getting locked up? |
People around me had tings worse |
No excuse, I had to fix up |
And now it’s all about growth |
Can’t go back to who I once was |
Cuh grime nearly killed me |
And grime saved my life |
Grime gave me an in |
And grime kept me outside |
I don’t ask for acceptance |
I only ask for forgiveness |
And hope that I grow strong enough |
To remain myself at all times |
Still don’t give one fuck about ends |
Ends never gave no fucks about me |
Certain quote unquote friends |
Can’t spend time or come around me |
And I’m thankful for the ones that I’ve kept |
And all my loved ones that I don’t see |
I don’t want no fake dons calling me family |
My brother and my sister still don’t speak |
Holding onto anger ain’t cool |
You’ve got to get to know your niece |
Don’t let things get too far |
She just started walking last week |
And to my brudda that’s going through bare tings |
I pray that you find your peace |
Don’t let all the anger consume you |
You won’t be happy, you won’t be free |
To all my exes I thought were the ones |
I’m happy we met but weren’t meant to be |
All the mistakes that we made together |
I ain’t gonna do the same with my queen |
I had to learn to let things go |
Can’t help the things that weren’t meant for me |
I can’t spend my time looking back |
Cause I miss things that I’m yet to see |
To anybody feels that they’re unheard |
To everyone who feels that they ain’t seen |
Don’t let your big heart get disheartened |
Don’t ever discard your dreams |
To all my overlooked outsiders |
All them talented kings and queens |
Don’t let the fact you were once lost |
Make you scared to take the lead, believe |
Don’t force it |
Like, for real |
Don’t force it |
Don’t try and hang with bad mind people you don’t actually like |
Don’t try and business with people that are, like, mad negative and you don’t |
even like their energies |
See that one person? |
That one person that’s always tryna put you down when other people are around |
Or make a joke out of your name |
Or try and have a joke on your behalf, to feed their ego? |
Dust them out |
Having no friends isn’t a bad thing, you know? |
Being comfortable with your own company isn’t a bad thing |
Being an outsider just lets you see inside a little bit clearer |
Not speaking too much lets you observe more |
And the less you talk, the more people can assume |
Some people talk too much |
Irony, she says |
But for real |
People have too much to say |
On Twitter, on Instagram, on Facebook, on Snapchat, on Instagram Story |
And yes, I’m a hypocrite 'cause I like to give people my opinion |
But I’m never giving people my opinion to put other people down, you understand? |
Be secure in who you are as person |
Walk into a room and be secure with who you are; your energies; your opinion; |
your state of mind |
That’s who you are |
Don’t let other people tarnish it, it’s a waste of time |
I promise you that |
2017, I had to have a spring clean of all these people that like to be my |
acquaintances |
If I haven’t rang you in 2017, I don’t business with you no more |
I am who I am and that’s my choice, not yours |
JGrrey, to us, if you’re nasty |