| Yeah
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| Depression, anxiety got ahold of me
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| 'Cause people say they want the older me
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| Well, I’m thirty, this the oldest me
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| Behold it’s me, the piece of shit that’s not good enough
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| Not black enough, not hood enough
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| Not rich enough, not poor enough
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| My heart has poured enough
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| I been beaten and battered, my confidence shattered
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| Been broken and tattered
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| I’m constantly second guessin' if my profession is worth it on my mental state
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| Writin' this from a dark place with humility and grace
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| Peace, love, and positivity was my nativity
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| But not when socials are in my vicinity
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| I’m not runnin' from the internet
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| My god, I was at its birth, I’ve been a vet
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| Goin' berserk like Peter down in Initech, yo, ayy
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| It’s deeper than the surface, I’m searchin' for purpose
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| I’m tired of searchin' for Logic on Google on purpose just to read that I’m
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| worthless
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| I remember makin' music alone, just a pen and a microphone
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| But nowadays it’s hard to get in the zone
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| Writin' rhymes was easy before the fame
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| Now I’m constantly overthinkin' every line, it’s a shame
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| Rap used to fill me with joy, now it’s nothin' but pain
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| I’m stuck in the game, tryna get back from where I came
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| I write this letter for the person who’s listenin'
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| Fed up and tired of people dismissin' 'em, I’m with you
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| I been through what you been through
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| And no amount of money can take away the feelin' of insecurity
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| Only through maturity can we overcome
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| Feel like I’ve been overrun, feel like it’s over, I’m done
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| Whoever told you success gon' make you happy? |
| You been lied to
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| All of my dreams came true but I bleed and cry too
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| Never been perfect, I failed every time I tried to
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| Feelin' hated and underappreciated
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| Every time I look in the mirror, I wonder, «Why you?»
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| Shit, I’d love to end this on some positive shit
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| Hit you with punchlines instead of some derogative shit
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| But it’s okay to be sad sometimes and tired of shit, I guess
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| And people say, «Well you’re just out for money»
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| I say, «That's none of your business»
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| You see, a lot of people don’t feel happy
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| Unless they have another thing beyond money, which is called status
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| And status, to a very large extent in our economy consists in
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| In having this thing, and that thing, and the other thing, and having a
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| swimming pool
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| A, uh, Ferrari, uh, certain kind of clothes and uh, certain kind of house
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| And so on, and so on, and so on
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| And we think, uh, we need all that
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| Because we haven’t asked ourselves whether that was what we really wanted
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| They all think they gotta have this, they gotta have that
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| And uh, they don’t really want it
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| If they sat back and considered, «Do I need all that? |
| Is this trip really
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| necessary?»
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| They would come to the conclusion that it wasn’t, ha-ha-ha-ha-ha |