| Scared to check so I press ignore
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| Life is best when you’re less informed
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| But life’s a mess when you’re pressing forward
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| Sorry sis for that call I missed
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| If I pick up now then I’m stressing more
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| I don’t know why I’m this way
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| I don’t know why I’m afraid
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| I know if my mother was here
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| She’ll tell me «Let go of your fears, quit all you’re crying and pray»
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| Telling you why I’m ashamed
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| Why I denied what I’ve gained
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| Why I’m not eager to talk
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| Cuz my father’s old and he works too much and I feel at fault
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| And I’m still chasing my dreams
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| And he sacrificed for my goals
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| And his only joy is through me
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| So his time to chill is on hold
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| And that’s more pressure on me
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| But I made the choices myself
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| And it’s time for me to grow up
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| But there’s no one left that can help
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| Just me
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| I can’t get enough, All I wanna to do is give you more
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| But did I mess up?
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| While chasing these open doors
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| Till they close
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| I don’t know, I don’t how long
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| I hope you see it, before you’re gone
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| Trapped in a maze that I made myself
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| Hardest song ever but it may not help
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| Spoke my mind, just the way I felt
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| Never dawned on me any shamed I dealt
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| I was just trying to get free
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| I was just trying to convey what was wrong
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| Never considered how people would look at my family or judge my father and mom
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| What am I wrong? |
| Should I be calm? |
| Should I be quiet and silence my plead?
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| Should I pretend like I wasn’t infected, infected with such an abusive disease?
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| Wasn’t neglect, Wasn’t disgust
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| You can do everything right as you must
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| You can be over protected as parents and still see your child a victim of lust
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| I am the proof, this shits the truth
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| You can accept it and just be aloof
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| Simply come blinded and often reminded
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| You cannot control what’s out of your view
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| This is the few
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| And it’s still enough to do damage
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| Looking back what I was looking at
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| And those Obstacles but I’ll manage
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| I can’t get enough
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| All I wanna to do is give you more
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| But did I mess up?
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| While chasing these open doors
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| Till they close
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| I don’t know, I don’t how long
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| I hope you see it, before you’re gone
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| Before you’re gone, I hope you see it
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| Before you’re gone, I mean it
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| Before you’re gone, one step closer
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| Before you’re gone, the dream
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| Before you’re gone, to give you everything
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| Before you’re gone, after all you’ve given me
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| Before you’re gone, one step closer
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| I can’t get enough
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| All I wanna to do is give you more
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| But did I mess up?
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| While chasing these open doors
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| Till they close
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| I don’t know, I don’t how long
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| I hope you see it |