Lyrics Worship What I Hate - Lady A

Worship What I Hate

I keep looking at myself in the mirror
Hoping it will change
And I keep wishing for a brand-new body
That I didn’t have to blame
I’m seeing every flaw, like a failure
I’m using every cure, like a savior
Like trying to build a church out of all my hurt
When it really needs grace
I gave all my time to nothing
I focused on who I was
Not who I’m becoming
My fears they took up space
My eyes couldn’t look away
I didn’t even realize
I worshiped what I hate
Half a bottle of red
Just before bed
Is the only way I dream
Before I rally wake up
The first thing I touch is a button on a screen
I’m not guilty of leavin', not stickin' around
I’m guilty of stayin' and just chckin' out
Yeah, I kept my head down and really missed out
On what’s in front of me
'Cause I gave all my time to nothin'
I focused on who I was
Not who I’m becomin'
My fears they took up space
My eyes couldn’t look away
I didn’t even realize
I worshiped what I hate
Why do the lies feel like the truth?
Why do I do the things I do?
Why do I fight so hard to keep my heart empty?
'Cause I gave so much time to nothing
I focused on who I was
Not who I’m becoming
My fears they took up space
My eyes couldn’t look away
I didn’t even realize
I worshiped what I hate
I didn’t even realize (Realize)
I didn’t even realize (Realize)
I didn’t even realize
I worshiped what I hate
Didn’t even realize
I worshiped what I hate
Didn’t even realize, no
Didn’t even realize, didn’t know
Mmm, yeah