| Lately feelin' nothing but just manic |
| Puff another blunt so I can jump up off the planet |
| Spacing out from worship while I’m purging up this canvas |
| I hope and pray to God one day my son can understand it |
| Damn it, I just wonder what’s the fucking chances |
| For me to rid me of this pain enough I tuck and cram it |
| And he’s the reason I do not give up, I’m up and standing |
| And never let him see my pain and cover up the bandage |
| What if I said I planned you but your mother wasn’t planning |
| Fresh up out the jail and I had nothing but a sandwich |
| Psych meds had me fat and ugly, something frantic |
| I just wanted someone who could love me but she panicked |
| Said I had her back but she ain’t want me but advances |
| Said we could make it could work but she ain’t want me |
| Was I damaged? |
| I was sick and held it down enough it was bananas |
| Made me feel disgusted out in public underhanded |
| She said a ton of stuff that got me took me from ya fam kid |
| So when I say you’re mine, just say what’s up then up and vanished |
| They prolly think that I don’t do enough, well fuck the antics |
| And if they try to turn you on me son, just understand this |
| I come from having nothing, now I’m something, look at Pam’s kids |
| And when I’m on the road and now you wonder where your dad is |
| I sacrifice so you do one for nothing on the damn list |
| And when I die you’ll have a little something for my grandkids |
| So whenever your daddy’s dead and gone |
| Don’t ever let nobody ever tell you wrong |
| 'Cause I was out here working all alone |
| Just know your daddy did it for you young boy |
| And just know that I want you to be strong |
| 'Cause everything I went through was alone |
| That’s why I had you baby in my room |
| I never knew my daddy as a young boy |
| So whenever your daddy’s dead and gone |
| Don’t ever let nobody ever tell you wrong |
| 'Cause I was out here working all alone |
| Just know your daddy did it for you young boy |
| And just know that I want you to be strong |
| 'Cause everything I went through was alone |
| That’s why I had you baby in my room |
| I never knew my daddy as a young boy |
| Looking at you smiling while you play yo daddy Xbox |
| You’re my reason love and when you leave I’ll feel my chest rock |
| Never knew my real father shoutout to my step-pops |
| Talk about what I went though with him my nigga let’s not |
| Nothing to identify with hanging like a dread lock |
| Head hot, like the Devil got me in a headlock |
| This is something way more than just making peoples' head nod |
| Writing this while drowning in some liquor on my desktop |
| When I think about you all my pumps will be in dead stop |
| Pull the pistol from my head don’t wanna make the lead pop |
| Even though your mama make it hard for me to stress nah |
| I won’t disrespect her I’ll just hop onto the next spot |
| All I want for you is just for you to have the best watch |
| Even though sometimes the rogue is what we get in bedrock |
| I will always be there for you disagree you better not |
| I was homeless feeding you when I ain’t have a red hot |
| I was in the streets and hoping one day I don’t get shot |
| Your mama kicked me out but she would still come through to get guap |
| I would give it to her, I’m just trying to be the best pops |
| And I could never be a deadbeat I’d rather dead drop |
| So when you see me on the TV with a guest spot |
| And when I’m crewing on the road until the check drop |
| It doesn’t matter what they think of me I guess not |
| I’m looking at your pictures rolling past a rest stop |
| So whenever your daddy’s dead and gone |
| Don’t ever let nobody ever tell you wrong |
| 'Cause I was out here working all alone |
| Just know your daddy did it for you young boy |
| And just know that I want you to be strong |
| 'Cause everything I went through was alone |
| That’s why I had you baby in my room |
| I never knew my daddy as a young boy |
| So whenever your daddy’s dead and gone |
| Don’t ever let nobody ever tell you wrong |
| 'Cause I was out here working all alone |
| Just know your daddy did it for you young boy |
| And just know that I want you to be strong |
| 'Cause everything I went through was alone |
| That’s why I had you baby in my room |
| I never knew my daddy as a young boy |