| I’ve never been an envious person in my life, man
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| Never been jealous of nobody
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| But like I did have a conversation with Mackenzie the other day
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| About like sometimes you do slip into those envious moments to people who don’t
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| have to deal with
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| The mental health shit we deal with, you know what I mean
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| Like how do you not feel that!
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| Juxtaposition of the weak and the strong
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| In a world full of so many people
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| But seem so alone
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| I fall into comparing myself to few
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| So elated I’ve waited with nothing else to do
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| I sit at bay while the ocean moves
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| Transparent, opaque but we’re both so blue
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| Look to space, lost within, it seems oh so gloom
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| Both dark for a star, where I go’s no moon
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| And I feel like fighting
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| Betrayed by God and I don’t feel right, crying
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| While everybody’s smiling
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| But I’m real life dying to live a life like you do
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| With mental illness nonexistent, pain is well but few too
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| Taking some shots like my pistol out
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| You can just tell the bartender to send more rounds
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| Pop me an Ativan so I can simmer down
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| Someone save me before I fucking hit the ground
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| I know what I feel is envy now
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| People don’t feel what I feel and that’s really wild
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| Invisible while I’m standing right in the crowd
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| When they said ignorance is bliss I get it now
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| I’m jealous of you
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| I’m so jealous
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| Damn I’m jealous of you
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| So jealous of you
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| Yep, I’m jealous of you
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| I’m so jealous
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| Damn, I’m jealous of you
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| So jealous
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| Jealous, yeah
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| You ain’t never dealt with this pain, yeah
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| All sunshine no rain, yeah
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| Your life’s so clean, no stain, yeah
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| Ain’t no stress, no strain, yeah
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| Never dealt with this pain, yeah
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| Fucking up your brain, yeah
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| Life’s so clean, no stain, yeah
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| Ain’t no stress, no strain, yeah
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| So jealous
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| Chugging this 40 while holding this TEC
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| Jellysickle like E-40 & Tech
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| How the fuck he don’t feel this? |
| Mean no disrespect
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| I’m as cold as a corpse, I’m a ghost in the flesh
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| Society has it at home to be next
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| Preachers outtake me, now bozo’s a threat
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| For jelly you enroll like the homie I guess
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| For sure depressed, that ball went over your head
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| Insomnia when you going to bed
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| And searching for love, I ain’t holding my breath
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| I don’t wanna answer my phone or a text
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| But it’s 3AM and I’m scrolling my thread
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| All of this fame but still lonely as heck
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| Don’t check on me but I’ll still loan you a check
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| One day you’ll be woke to this cloak, how I’m dressed
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| By then, at the way King Iso’ll be dead
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| Two baby boys, why I give all my passion
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| And I stay driven, though mentally crashing
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| Some people just do not get it I’m asking
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| Is it wrong to feel this envy I’m having
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| I’m saving lives I didn’t imagine
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| Got to be strong, my strength isn’t lasting
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| Here is the sad plot twist I’ve established
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| Iso’s a hero that wished it could happen
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| I’m jealous of you
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| I’m so jealous
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| Damn I’m jealous of you
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| So jealous of you
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| Yep, I’m jealous of you
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| I’m so jealous
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| Damn, I’m jealous of you
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| So jealous
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| Jealous, yeah
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| You ain’t never dealt with this pain, yeah
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| All sunshine no rain, yeah
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| Your life’s so clean, no stain, yeah
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| Ain’t no stress, no strain, yeah
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| Never dealt with this pain, yeah
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| Fucking up your brain, yeah
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| Life’s so clean, no stain, yeah
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| Ain’t no stress, no strain, yeah
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| Jealous
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| Antipsychotic amphetamine, mood stabilizer, SSRI
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| Can’t be alright
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| Can’t relate to any of them around
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| My life is a circus, I feel like the clown
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| You gave me this life but I’m turning it down
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| I’m sick of this shit, now I’ll see myself out
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| I was feeling that I would start the car and close the garage (Garage)
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| So many thoughts form in my mind
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| But I won’t say much (I won’t say much)
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| 'Cause you won’t understand
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| You weren’t dealt this hand
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| I try not to be mad at you, but I can’t correct my statue
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| When your happiness is actual
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| And my energy can’t match you
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| Tell me
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| Tell me why?
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| Pain, yeah
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| Rain, yeah
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| Stay here
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| Strain here
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| Pain here
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| Brain, yeah
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| Stay, yeah
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| Strain, yeah
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| Jealous |