| Sanguine giving me advice over drinks over and over again
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| And it just kept going straight right over and over my head,
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| And I would try to lie and hide to get over and over on them
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| Why would you lie to your friend?
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| I can’t make everyone and myself happy.
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| I’m so fucking over it.
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| No mentions of where I am or where I’m going,
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| Or who I’m seeing or how I’m feeling.
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| This isn’t the last part, it’s just the next,
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| And what comes next is the ultimatum:
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| Do I choose my love or my friend that hates them?
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| Don’t @ me, and don’t tag me.
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| I don’t wanna listen to your complaining.
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| You run your fingers like you run your mouth.
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| Shut the fuck up. |
| Shut the fuck up.
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| Who’s right, who’s wrong?
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| And just when I think things can’t get any worse, they always fucking do.
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| I fucking hate you. |
| You ruined my life. |
| I just want my iPod back.
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| I’m calm, it’s fine, it’s okay.
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| Here comes my father hot and bothered and full of lager.
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| I’m not your daughter. |
| Every single piano, every man in my life.
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| Music to my ears to hear you shake your spear at me about religion,
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| sex and politics
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| You don’t know shit about and how the color of my skin means I can’t be
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| depressed.
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| The black boy better grab on to those boot straps.
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| The dry, wry encouragement of roll up your sleeves and pick yourself up
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| Gets exaggerated and emphasized when they’re used to fix my mental health.
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| I’m not a leaky faucet or a loose screw. |
| I’m an inch away from you,
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| Face to face and we still can’t see eye to eye.
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| Now I’m on the bathroom floor with a chair to the door,
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| The only thing keeping you from killing me.
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| Banging. |
| Screaming. |
| Gary Barbera commercials on the TV.
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| My father did it to me, that’s just how I was raised
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| My mother did it to me, that’s just how I was raised
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| Abuse is always disguised as that’s how I was raised
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| Well… what are you, gay? |
| No, I just don’t like sports.
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| Well… what are you, stupid? |
| No, I just don’t understand math.
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| Well… what are you, weak? |
| No, I just don’t want to fight.
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| What is wrong with you? |
| I don’t know, I need you to help me. |