Lyrics Secrets - Json, J.R.

Secrets

Who do you think you are?
To take what wasn’t yours
The innocence I once adored
Was tripped away behind closed doors
The enemies inside my home
But who would ever listen to me?
And all the secrets that you made me keep
It rains on the window paint
Darkness surrounding me
The steps outside my door
Right now I’m sound asleep
The door opens slowly
And I can hear it slightly
But I don’t move or even look to see who it might be
Someone’s next to me
The weight is on my bed
The cover’s pulling back
A hand is on my leg
I want to sneak and peak
But I just can’t seem to let myself
Is my father checking me?
I’m nine and I’m often wet myself
I have no options
Forgot me grip the even mood
Supposed to protect but abusing me
Now I’m so confused
So many emotions with
His sweat dripping
I lay there motionless hoping this night might soon to be over with
Holding back cries
My mind is racing
Closed eyes like I’m not awaken
I’d rather die than be in this situation
As he leaves
I know the secret I buried and hide
But hiding this secret I just seem to be buried alive
Who do you think you are?
To take what wasn’t yours
The innocence I once adored
Was stripped away behind closed doors
The enemies inside my home
But who would ever listen to me?
And all the secrets that you made me keep
And it’s tearing me apart
It’s tearing me apart
It’s tearing me apart
It’s tearing me apart
I’m older, on my own now
I’m grown now
But the secrets still won’t leave me alone now
Wow I felt my innocence melt away
Was living promiscuous really giving myself away?
Why would I protect you?
Truth I would hide and cover
Would anyone believe me?
How could I tell my mother?
Confusion turned to sadness
Sadness led to me stressing
Stressing led to the anger
Anger led to depression
Then I was arrested by a truth that would truly free me
The gospel gripped my heart
Shown me how the father see me
Biblical counseling
Brothers and sisters in my list
Help me endure it
Though it happened, I’ll never forget
But I do have a hope
That I do truly know
In heaven every memory will be whitened in snow
So though I struggle to forgive you
I fight 'cause I must
I must forgive you 'cause I know he’s forgiven me much
Who do you think you are?
To take what wasn’t yours
The innocence I once adored
Was stripped away behind closed doors
The enemies inside my home
But who would ever listen to me?
And all the secrets that you made me keep
And it’s tearing me apart
It’s tearing me apart
It’s tearing me apart
It’s tearing me apart
Papa papa
Why to they come for me?
Papa papa
How do I face my fears?