Lyrics Deep End - Josh Martinez

Deep End

Chorus:
Last night I broke
Something finally snapped.
I’m in a corner trapped
You spoke I smoked and sat
Still soaking wet reckon I’d die if I’m mistaken.
It was all in vain, for the sane I’ve forsaking.
Verse 1
Every one I know is insane.
They’ve got madness in the brain.
Going, going, gone Off the deep end,
On the edge of profane, profound pain,
Suck down tylenol 3 if ever I’m at all free.
Nobody called to say they cared.
Going bald, having bared my soul
I pull my hair until I tear the roots out.
Why do I doubt?
I can’t control my mind,
Follow the line, falling behind it’s all in my mind.
Man its happening all the time.
I didn’t wake up inspired,
I haven’t even slept yet.
I’m not tired.
I’m wide awake for another night of walking the thin wires,
between the demons and the genius this inspires.
I am slowly going crazy.
6, 5, 4, 3, 2, 1 spit.
Sweat dripping from my lip and I can feel myself slipping,
into states beyond your grip and on cue I do a back flip.
And find myself drifting into lifting off looking off a cliff
And thinking should I jump, when something starts to happen.
It creeps its way through my circuits when it works its way in deeper.
Doing all nighters, and all too often I can’t sleep.
The grim reaper cometh, spreading seeded plague.
Screaming I’ll bring the demon, you bring the egg.
I just want to touch your sanity, begging on my knees
please relieve me of what’s left of my vanity
and what’s that sound?
eyes bugging out of head,
can’t stop brain please shut down,
For once and leave me alone in this hallway,
all night and all day.
I’ll pay rent and live in the hallway.
So say those who turned to god and swayed as they prayed,
with frayed rope I let go and watched it all fade away.
Verse 2
As I nervously waited finding my way to breach surface,
elated with each purpose.
Glad we made it.
She seemed so seemlessly sedated with senseless fists clenched.
The stench overwhelming.
My whole body tensed.
Wrench the monkey from my back, pack my bags soak the rags in gas,
take a last look back.
And (Blast off).
Then (black out)
I pop pills (on the 1) to stop chills running up my spine,
Every day’s a little better I lose a little more of my mind.
My tidal wave emotions pave the hopeless stain.
Blood is spreading through the grain and growing into flowers
Turning everything it touches that is plain into powers
that initiate change like cold showers in the rain.
On whose broken maimed streets I’ve lain in your dirt.
On whose shoes I spit shined but never called it work
On whose shirt I’ve both bled and cried on,
On whose walls I write my name with a can of red krylon.
I wanna get beyond the long arm of the law,
And boot the cops from the corners and the doctors from the clinics.
Get in free win a new Saturn see a pattern yet?
Apparently you’re not a doctor.
Give me my methadone, You’re not so hot you can’t be touched.
Such thoughts Should be stricken from the records sick of everybody’s questions.
Let me ask you this.
You ever lost your mind?
And gone blind but didn’t mind the mining of your mind for diamonds,
When I’m in the business of making what’s yours, mine.
And my mind is mine and I’ve lost it,
6, 5, 4, 3, 2, 1 spit.
I need a new pearl of wisdom for this black cloud to follow.
I act proud and swallow pride intact although I’m not allowed to wallow
on the inside.
I act introverted.
But I made a pact with laughter and so perverted
The very thoughts that the doctor’s were after
until disaster struck I was the king of the castle,
The slave and the vassal.
The ways of the mistress and masters
crazed craving for power’s, that’s what I’m after.
So I need a new pearl of wisdom curled up positon hazy,
Spin the wheel, feel the real fade and kiss the closest thing you know to crazy.
Chorus:
Last night I broke
Something finally snapped.
I’m in a corner trapped
You spoke I smoked and sat
Still soaking wet knowing that this moment was sacred.
Shivering shaking in the dark stark naked.
Still soaking wet reckon I’d die if I’m mistaken.
It was all in vain, for the sane I’ve forsaking.