Lyrics Beautiful - John Anthony

Beautiful

Yeah
It’s been an up and down roller coaster, I guess it’s finally over
Who would’a known that I was holdin' a chip on my shoulder
The size of a boulder but I know I couldn’t brush it off
Had to just carry this weight 'til it would crush my lung
And I couldn’t breathe, pressure applying to my chest
There was no option to power through if there’s nothing left
Isolated, I needed space so I would just forget
How I hated myself 'cause I felt I was not like the rest
It’s like your brain is going numb
You take a baby step and you like, yeah that’s enough
Was too afraid to open up, if I gave it my love
Worried I’d fall for the trap and take a knife to the gut
And though I seem to be happy
When them curtains close, them dark clouds follow me sadly
And that’s when I can get a little snappy
So how can I love it and at the same time hate it so badly, if I can
Sit here and tell you that it only gets better then I be lying
'Cause honestly I don’t know whether it’s gonna change
If effort is all you gave then never just let the pain take you,
and be proud to say
These scars are beautiful
These scars are beautiful
Through every single day I’ve try to escape that pain
But I think I can finally say that they are so beautiful