Lyrics Standing Alone - Jaykae, Dapz On The Map

Standing Alone

Let me open my mind and relieve some tension
In beef I don’t leave my bredrin
Tryna go hard for the next ten years so when I get old I don’t need my pension
HMP you better free my henchmen
Roll true fam I need my entrance
Don’t like going on twitter no more
Depz’s name when I see my mentions
Fam I can’t cope with it
Nah, I miss them times that I smoked with him
Or link up and buss thru drunk with him
Now I’m upset and I can’t hold it in
It was a younger me, it was an older him
About a month that I ain’t been sober in
I don’t wanna do this music ting
But this music ting’s what I owe to him
Could quit music but it probably wouldn’t help
I can’t be out here feeling sorry for myself
Need to provide for the ones that I ride for
Don’t wanna watch
Did this ting and we did it by ourselves
From the road trips to the studio
More of those nights was chillin' in my house
Those times are the times that I’m thinkin' about
Yeah, I’m lost without you
And it feels like I can’t be a boss without you
Road to success in front of my face and it feels like I can’t run across
without you
Havin' flashbacks about that night
Thinkin' why couldn’t that doctor help you
Yeah it’s mad how things change
Trust me it’s insane
I’m thinking what life would be like if I weren’t doing music
I’d probably be with my boys doing something really stupid
A couple of my friends are behind bars, oh
They love you when you’re here
When you’re gone they ain’t concerned
So first things first I’m putting myself out
Cos nowadays nobody wants to give a handout unless you help yourself out
I’m standing alone, alone, alone
I’m standing alone, alone, alone
Man wanna kick a man when a man’s down but then kick it with a man when a man’s
up
Trust me when I say there’s only a few man that man trust that’s why I’m
standing alone
It’s like I’m on a cold, lonely road on my own
Got no-one with me
Yo
If I never done music
I’m tryna think where I’d be right now
I’d be on the road where drugs get sold
Watching my back when I leave my house
On the roads you don’t know who to trust
But in the music ting I’m due to buss
So don’t ever try get rude to us
What you think I’m a prick cos I spray bars?
My bredrins inside on a ten stretch
And I’m pissed cos I was on the same charge
So don’t talk bad if you ain’t hard
I’m gettin' all stressed cos Lee’s in there
So I’m tryna get rich when he’s in there
When he comes out he’s nice
Jesus Christ
I need to hold up tings and make sure everythin' will be just right
Yeah I’m standin' alone
Workin' so I won’t answer my phone yeah I’m bad to the bone
Thinkin' your bad cos your bredrins there but there’s no-one there when you’re
cryin' on your own
Yeah I’m standin' alone
Them little boys can’t stand on my throne you’re mad
If I get shot or stabbed up tomorrow then who’s gonna look after your dad?
Real talk
Cos I only say what I live
Take a seat get down with my history
My old man never showed me love
That’s the reason why he don’t mean shit to me
Gotta succeed with life
Rub it in his face all smug with victory
I don’t know what’s written in a book no-more
So the rest of my life is a mystery
I’m thinking what life would be like if I weren’t doing music
I’d probably be with my boys doing something really stupid
A couple of my friends are behind bars, oh
They love you when you’re here
When you’re gone they ain’t concerned
So first things first I’m putting myself out
Cos nowadays nobody wants to give a handout unless you help yourself out
I’m standing alone, alone, alone
I’m standing alone, alone, alone
Man wanna kick a man when a man’s down but then kick it with a man when a man’s
up
Trust me when I say there’s only a few man that man trust that’s why I’m
standing alone
Standing alone
It’s like I’m on a cold, lonely road on my own
Got no-one with me
Man have just got peas, weed, clothes and my phone
Don’t know where I’m going
But tonight don’t think Imma go my home
So much going on in my head right now can’t chill and stay in my zone
It’s overly cold
You don’t know how many times my soldiers have rolled out
On tracks I go for the gold so Depzman’s running this bars ting no doubt
You best keep your jokes on the low
Round here there just ain’t nothing to joke ‘bout
Most time I roll on my own cah most man don’t show up when it goes down
And fucked as it sounds that’s just how things are in my home town
0121 nuff man are fake
That’s cool they’re the ones I don’t roll round
Man know me cos I flow well
And If you don’t like me oh well
Cos I ain’t goin' nowhere fast
And if you didn’t know that then you know now
But the way that I spray my bars you can tell there’s pain in my heart
Been goin' in hard straight from the start but they didn’t wanna rate me it’s a
par
But now they praise me and I just laugh
Fam it’s funny how they’re up my arse
Ha, yeah it’s mad how things change
Trust me it’s insane