Lyrics Discarded - Jam in the Van, Russian Roulette

Discarded

You just couldn’t pick up the pieces of the puzzle you had made instead you
threw it away once a credible promise a part of your living soul discarded I’m
no longer whole
I’ve got a lot of pain and ANGER directed toward a STRANGER the only way that I
can talk to you is through a piece of PAPER
It’s PITIFUL missing you was MISERABLE what you did to me was UNTHINKABLE
UNFIXABLE to you I was INVISIBLE you left me as a broken INDIVIDUAL
I hate the way I PICTURE YOU and I and ain’t even got a PICTURE OF YOU but I
still LOVE YOU because you’ll always be my MOTHER even though to you I’m
probably just another number (Yea)
I hit you on the book like REMEMBER ME that is even if I have a place in your
MEMORY cuz the day that I was born you just up and LEFT ME now tell me that
ain’t HEAVY I never felt so EMPTY
So now I’m sitting in my room GUESSING if God is real I’m BEGGING for a BLESSING
All I ever wanted was for you to come in my DIRECTION give me some ATTENTION
but I guess we’ll get that once we meet again in HEAVEN
You just couldn’t pick up the pieces of the puzzle you had made instead you
threw it away once a credible promise a part of your living soul discarded I’m
no longer whole
I got your name tatted on my arm WILLINGLY but I need my mom in person and it’s
KILLING ME crying in the studio you FEELING ME
Music is the only thing that takes away my MISERY music is the only thing that
ever brings me SYNIGY its funny cuz my ma to me is HISTORY
Where were you when I was in the HOSPITAL our relationship will never been
POSSIBLE
When you have a kid leaving ain’t an OPTION I’ve been abused in every way
because of my ADOPTION and you know you should’ve used a CONDOM failed suicide
attempts with a SHOTGUN welcome to ROCK BOTTOM
Better know as HELL sitting in my room I YELL
I’ve abused drugs just to COPE and I don’t mean smoking weed I’m talking
SLAMMING DOPE I’m DAMAGED YO
Trying to put the piecing to the PUZZLE yea I STRUGGLE but I’m shedding light
to every addict at the end of the TUNNEL
You just couldn’t pick up the pieces of the puzzle you had made instead you
threw it away once a credible promise a part of your living soul discarded I’m
no longer whole
It’s been 18 YEARS and I’m still fighting back TEARS
I kind of figured that you’re not coming BACK you brushed my under like a door
MATT I have every reason (ahhh) but you’re MAD
I don’t GET IT step into my shoes and look at everything I had to WITNESS
waiting at the WINDOW when you told me you’d be back in MINUTES I was thrown up
in the SYSTEM
Crushing CRYSTALS toting PISTOLS it was death or PRISON and my head went
MISSING this isn’t real
I just want to know what HAPPENED I don’t need the story just CAPTION or a
FRACTION and I’m begging don’t you hear my PASSION and it’s hard to FATHOM why
you could just walk AWAY I couldn’t talk but inside I was screaming ma just
STAY
You just couldn’t pick up the pieces of the puzzle you had made instead you
threw it away once a credible promise a part of your living soul discarded I’m
no longer whole