Lyrics Ode to the Authentically Desperate - I Am King

Ode to the Authentically Desperate

This plastic tree stands still alone
Lit up to the ceiling with hope
Clock ticks cut through the silent chill
Patiently waiting for you to come home
Hours are devoured by the pacing
Through the patience I’m wearing thin
With every step I take in
This cold and bitter reality that’s breaking my heart
Didn’t want to say it but I knew from the start
I wish I knew what you were thinking
I didn’t know you were sinking.
Looking back on it all, I see something was
wrong
I’m the best at playing dumb But I’m the worst at moving on
This lack of sleep drives the panic into lunacy
And I feel my lungs start to collapse.
Running on empty
, After the drive we’re taken up into a room
Where nightmare meets reality.
And It hits me so hard
That I fall through the floor
I’m not alive anymore
What the hell is it all for?
It’s worthless
What did i do to deserve this?
I lost you and all i got was gifts.
What a merry fuckin christmas from hell.
I wish I knew what you were thinking.
I didn’t know you were sinking
Looking back on it all, I see something was wrong.
I’m the best at playing dumb
But I’m the worst at moving on
All the years roll past
Too fast.
Still your memory never fades.
It seems like just yesterday
We’d drive your truck
Up to the mountains
If I could turn all the clocks back
You know I’d do it all again.
All I want for christmas is…
I wish I knew what you were thinking
I didn’t know you were sinking.
Looking back on it all, I see something was
wrong
I’m the best at playing dumb
But I’m the worst at moving on