Lyrics Pensive - Homebound

Pensive

Until one door closes, another won’t open
It’s hard to believe when disheartened and broken
Too much of our lives contemplating what might
make a difference
I rewrite the script almost every day
The same story’s told with no sign of change
When times slipping through your fingers
The cloud of doubt begins to linger
On all the things I said I should’ve done
By the time I’m turning twenty one
Do you think about all the time you spend wishing
this could end?
Longing for a reason to leave this all behind
But further down the line and I’m stuck in this skin of mine living some other
life
Waiting around hoping for something more
Still I’m digging myself a hole
The further away I go, the more I forget what I’m doing this for
Until one door closes, another won’t open
It’s hard to believe when disheartened and broken
I spill my guts into it
Wait around and see what sticks
I had my head up in the clouds
Never came down to deal with this reality that people talk about
As if at my age they had life figured out
Too much of our lives contemplating what might make a difference.
'cause I curse myself almost every day
Thinking how I nearly walked away
Do you think about all the time you spend wishing this could end?
Longing for a reason to leave this all behind
But further down the line and I’m stuck in this skin of mine living some other
life
Waiting around hoping for something more
Still I’m digging myself a hole
The further away I go, the more I forget what I’m doing this for
I wanted you to know, I’ll have something to show