Lyrics Wonder Killer - Ham Sandwich, Chi-Chi

Wonder Killer

You made it so far, I’m real proud of you
You reached out for the stars, but got burned and yearned for that boundless
view
Bottled in a jar, walls turn to faces surrounding you
I’m reaching out my arms, but it hurts cause they’re not surrounding you
You were in the darkest of nights
And I failed in providing that spark of a light
All the pain you would hide, it had scarred you inside
It’s insane, never thought that you would part with your life
Always stuck in my mental, never cared for it much
And I would struggle to chill, I know that I wasn’t enough
Embodied the hurt and I guess for what it was worth, they walked on me like I
was dirt
And I trid to be someone that thy would consider perfect, you’re the one that
made it worth it
Tell me that I can restart, so I thought with my heart, didn’t get me too far
Know that we can shine bright, but only when it’s this dark and
We can show them new light, stay up late with this stars
Even if it ain’t right, I just wanna know who you are
'Cause I’m all alone in my dome, I’ve been trapped inside
Wish I had a hope, but I don’t, barely even try
Can’t stay optimistic if I did it my entire life
Treated like I’m different, I’m just sick of feeling all the time
Need it to get out my mind, just want someone by my side
Overthinking every little thing like it was do or die
Who am I?
Scared to share the truth of what I keep in mind
I’ll be fine if you promise it won’t end in suicide
I was a lonely kid, surrounded by faces in crowded spaces
Haters and fakers, the world ain’t do me no favors
And now I’m dealing with the loss of my only friend
They don’t wanna see me suffer, bottle up and hold it in
Heart is growing cold again, statues crying, fighting through the trauma
I just tell her I’mma see her later, living through the saga
Breaking others out their shells, I’m coming out of my own
But not my own, new circle round me making me grow
I need to atone, but I also need to move on
So much I need to improve on
I been beside myself, they turn a blind eye, tortured by the evils of their
ignorance
Tell me I should get a grip, I get a grip, and put em in the sediment
Dust settling, I’m tired of coping, I know I’m broken, but I’m working on it
And every day is a lesson, that’s what I’m learning on it
Armed with a reminder of my past self
Closer to the future every time I hear the pass bell
If I bring it back again can I finally put an end to these
Wonders, Wonders, to these Wonders, Wonders
What’s left for me to find?
When can I put behind these
Wonders, Wonders, all these Wonders, Wonders
Feels like I’m lost out in space and I can’t find my way, but I’ll try
gravitate to these
Wonders, Wonders, to these Wonders, Wonders
Nothing feels real anymore, numb to the pain, I barely feel anymore for these
Wonders, Wonders, all these Wonders, Wonders
There’s time left for me, I’ll make amends
Make sure that the system never fails again
It aches, but then I guess you had it worse
It never feels real until they’re leaving in that hearse
The schools made us think that we were by ourselves
And the police made us terrified to cry for help
Know your friends don’t exist if they’re not IRL
And you should just be fucking grateful you’re alive and well
Trust me, you’re not by yourself
Feel free to cry for help
You’re alive and well
And only you can find a Wonder deep inside of yourself