Lyrics Self Destruction - Glen Porter

Self Destruction

I’m at the point of mental combustion, stuck in this rut and
All this extra weight just results in self destruction
Beatin' up myself I need to find some kind of peace
So I take that walk to the corner bar searching for release
Twist the caps and throw 'em back that’s how I numb the sorrows
Getting lost inside a bottle forgettin' all my tomorrows
Spoken word and smokin' herb to try and calm my nerves
Turning my lungs death black, guess it’s what I deserve
Through all the cheap escapes used to break free from reality
From all the pills and all the thrills that pull me down like gravity
In actuality, I bring this pain upon myself
So whatever the case, don’t take this as a cry for help
Contemplating the next step in this mysterious journey, yearning,
this passion is burning
For the cure to stop my stomach from turning
I’d do anything to constrain this pain of my brain it’s hard to stay sane with
a weight upon my shoulders
That’s much more heavier than boulders
Building up pressure inside it feels like I’m about to burst
To tell you the truth talking about it just makes me feel worse
Like I’m living a curse that’s got me destined for destruction
And when depression sets in it makes things difficult to function
Trying to make things all right but wrong’s the only thing that’s left
Can’t even write this song right 'cause I don’t know treble or bass clef
Living my life day to day without knowing what comes next
See that’s what fuels my frustration, it’s not so complex