Translation of the song lyrics Yastayım - Ferhat Göçer

Yastayım (original)

Yoksun yine varligin surunuyor
Sensizligim bilinmiyor
Sen gittin gideli ellerim hep titriyor
Kalbim bu aciyi sakliyor
Yillar sonra bile hic kimseye soyleyemedim
Bu sevdayi kalbime gomdum ve sen oldun
Simdi esim dostum beni hastayim saniyor
Yastayim hic kimse bilmiyor
Seni son gordugum yerde yillar sonra
O gun geldi yine aklima
Bu kez bir elinde kizin icinde firtina
Gocup gittigin o yolda
Sen varmissin gibi her gece isigi kapatmadim
Gel gor ki ben hala yokluguna alisamadim
Simdi esim dostum beni hastayim saniyor
Yastayim hic kimse bilmiyor
Cok zor o kadar yil sonra itiraf etmek
Bu aski bertaraf etmek
Bu kez sana soyleyecek ne cok sey vardi
Isterdim bak unutmadim demek
Yillar sonra bile hic kimseye soyleyemedim
Sen oldun ben bu sevdayi kabime gomdum
Simdi esim dostum beni hastayim saniyor
Yastayim hic kimse bilmiyor
Bugun dogum gunun yaninda degilim
Bu yuzden hic iyi degilim
Yaslandim artik biraktigin gibi degilim
Ustelik bir kizim var evliyim
Yillar sonra bile hic kimseye soyleyemedim
Bu sevdayi kalbime gomdum ve sen oldun
Simdi esim dostum beni hastayim saniyor
Yastayim hic kimse bilmiyor
Sen varmissin gibi her gece isigi kapatmadim
Hastayim hic kimse bilmiyor

Yastayım (translation)

You're gone, your existence continues again
My absence is unknown
Since you're gone, my hands are always shaking
My heart hides this pain
Even after years, I couldn't tell anyone
I buried this love in my heart and became you
Now my husband thinks I'm sick
I'm in mourning, no one knows
Years later, where I last saw you
That day came to my mind again
This time the storm in the girl in one hand
I'm sorry on that road you went
I didn't turn off the light every night like you exist
Come see, I still can't get used to your absence
Now my husband thinks I'm sick
I'm in mourning, no one knows
It's so hard to admit after so many years
To dispose of this love
There was so much to tell you this time
I wanted to say look I didn't forget
Even after years, I couldn't tell anyone
It was you, I buried this love in my heart
Now my husband thinks I'm sick
I'm in mourning, no one knows
We're not next to your birthday today
We are not better than this
I'm leaning on, I'm not the same as you left
Besides, I have a daughter, I'm married
Even after years, I couldn't tell anyone
I buried this love in my heart and became you
Now my husband thinks I'm sick
I'm in mourning, no one knows
I didn't turn off the light every night like you exist
I'm sick no one knows