| The wait, the gait
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| Of men divorced of meaning
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| Betrays their state
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| As pigeons stopped from preening
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| A plaintive plea
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| Is useless sophistry
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| I never wanted to be questioned why
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| I’m here, now
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| Grey, and unmoved
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| Twitching, unceasing
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| The tension taut between
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| Pain, unsoothed
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| And loss, twice removed
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| Normalized the fucking state of life
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| Where the fog alludes
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| To the internment of mind
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| The interminable stay in a section of swaying thoughts
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| And retorts
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| I, I can’t escape what’s prophesied
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| But I refuse to treat the wisdom as received
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| Just because another life has felt reprieve
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| Narcissistic terms, apologist conditions
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| Strenuous in turn; |
| constant atonal renditions
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| Of unconscious whims, sung by damaged neural strings
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| I can’t help what I can’t see
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| But I don’t presume what I could be
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| I’d rather be alone, than leave a space for spacelessness
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| I’d rather not intone, the morbid hymns of gracelessness
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| I’d rather be alone, than be a space for spacelessness
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| I’d rather not intone, the morbid hymns of gracelessness
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| And stress
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| A constant source of weakness
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| Your hand, interned, immune to touch and life and burns
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| You are not their progeny
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| Even if you want to be
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| I’d rather be alone, than leave a space for spacelessness
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| I’d rather not intone, the morbid hymns of gracelessness
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| I’d rather be alone, than be a space for spacelessness
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| I’d rather die at home, than leave your face a sordid
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| Mess
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| I never wanted to be questioned why
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| I’m here
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| Now
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| Pushing the envelope
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| Punish the interloper
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| Pressure our nascent joy to stray
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| If I could write the beauty of your eyes
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| (You are the pebbles that my self runs over)
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| And in fresh numbers, number all your graces
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| (You texture me — you move the way I move)
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| The age to come would say «This poet surely lies
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| (You bend my surface — you reshape my groove,)
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| Such heavenly touches ne’er touched earthly faces.»
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| (break the perfection of the rhythmed sliding surface of my heart)
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| Faces
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| Faces
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| Faces
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| Faces, unclean, they gleam
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| With saline acceptance
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| Phases, abrasive turns of phrases, like «life is a veil of tears.» |