| Yeah, feeling sick again
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| Swore the last time was the last time
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| But look at me on a slip again
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| Wish I was different but it’s always the same
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| So strained a feeling of that withdrawal pain
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| And all my friends they don’t understand
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| It’s been a minute since you got a bag maybe it wasn’t that bad
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| And you can just have one now
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| And I’ll be taking one balloon so high I’ll never come down
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| So wake me when it’s over I got to try to fix this
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| I’ll call you when I’m sober or when I’m not resistant
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| I’m sorry that you love me, I know you hate it
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| Fucked up when I stopped being grateful and got complacent
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| I’m only high cause I been feeling this low
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| And that’s the only make it back to normal I suppose
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| And I know you think I’m perfect but all of that’s a facade
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| And trying to hide how I been feeling is lonelier than I thought
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| So put the bottle down, I really don’t trust what I do
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| I make the worst decisions sober that’s the fucking truth
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| Cause I don’t take the first hit when I’m already blitzed
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| I take it clear headed uncomfortable in my fucking skin
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| You don’t know what I’ve done
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| I swear to God that if you did
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| Then your heart would be broken into a million pieces
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| Had it all but I lost it in a blink
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| Afraid to ask for help cause I’m afraid of what you think
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| Mama I’m so sorry I’m not sober anymore
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| Daddy please forgive me for the drinks spilled on the floor
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| To the ones who never left me we’ve been down this road before
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| I’m so sorry, I’m not sober anymore
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| And I’m just hoping for some happy in the end
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| Trying to be a hero I can’t even save my friends
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| You don’t know where I’m at or where I’m going where I’ve been
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| So don’t try to pretend
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| I’ve got an itch I’ll never scratch but I’m going until I bleed
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| Like who the fuck are you to tell me what you think I really need
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| Cause I’ve awoken up a beast that never stops until it feeds
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| And it’s been eating me alive inside my dreams
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| And I don’t mean to make you nervous when you think of me
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| Everybody is leaving me it’s hard to find someone to relate with me on this
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| frequency
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| I’m sitting in another meeting on the west side
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| Raising my hand again
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| This was not the plan again
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| Just sick of being sick
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| What’s that insanity?
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| Like it’ll be different this time but it’s never different though
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| And it doesn’t happen quick it happens gradually
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| And I never thought that life would be this fucking difficult
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| Just got a feeling I’m losing and maybe that’s a fact
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| Maybe these feelings are feelings I shouldn’t treat as facts
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| Like it’ll pass if you just try to let it go
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| But you will never understand the way it gets when I’m alone no
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| I don’t know how to love I swear to God that if I did
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| Your heart wouldn’t be broken into a million pieces
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| Had it all but lost it in a blink
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| Afraid to ask for help cause I’m afraid of what you think
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| Mama I’m so sorry I’m not sober anymore
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| Daddy please forgive me for the drinks spilled on the floor
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| To the ones who never left me we’ve been down this road before
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| I’m so sorry, I’m not sober anymore
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| I can’t do this all on my own
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| You’re never too far gone to come back home
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| I can’t do this all on my own
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| You’re never too far gone to come back home
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| I can’t do this all on my own
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| You’re never too far gone to come back home |