| I’ve been waiting for a moment
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| With something I can say
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| To tell you I’ve been lying
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| I’m really not okay
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| I will just keep falling
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| Wait until I hit
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| And then I’m asking how’d I wind up in this place again?
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| So I take another pill then I zone out
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| Tone down all the shit in my head but that voice gets so loud
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| That I can’t think, and I just wanna run
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| Like I’m never coming back
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| And I really wanna love
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| But I feel so anxious everyday
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| Wake up, can’t go back to sleep
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| Lay in my bed
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| Then turn on my phone and look at these people who better than me
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| I can start feeling the old insecurities tighten the grip in my chest
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| They keep on saying that time makes it better then why do I constantly feel
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| like I’m less?
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| Don’t wanna speak up I feel like the only one having these problems of all of
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| my friends
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| Is it anxiety built up inside of me, or am I dying? |
| Is this how it ends?
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| Or maybe that’s how real life is?
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| I don’t wanna feel like this
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| All this shit I’m dealing with more heavy than I realize and I’m slowing down,
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| down, down
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| And I’ll be falling down, down, baby
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| Yeah, it’s a long way down, look out below
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| I’ve got some voices in my head that wanna see me die
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| They waiting for an opportunity to pull me down
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| They’re never stopping until I fall
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| Look out below
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| Now tell me, what do I do?
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| When I’ve got all these vices that I’m tied to
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| Waiting for an opportunity to pull me down
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| And they ain’t stopping till they see me fall, oh shit
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| Look out below
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| Another day that I’m trying to float, but I’m treading water and I’m feeling
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| weak
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| Looking round for someone to help but there’s no one there and I’m starting to
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| sink
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| Fantasize what it might be like to just stop the fight and then drift away
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| I will sit alone and let the thought replay
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| When the whole life feels just like a train wreck
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| Wanna look away but I just stay with
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| Trying to get ahead but I just can’t win
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| And I fall apart but I don’t say shit
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| Take your pick
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| What’s your fix today?
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| The drugs? |
| the girls? |
| perfection?
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| Once you get a grip on that, you’ll switch addictions to attention
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| When those people turn on you, you’ll go running back for affection
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| From the friends you left behind but you can’t re-establish that connection
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| Sick of everybody telling me to learn to let go
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| I can barely holding on the edge
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| I can never get a grip if I let it go again
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| I ain’t ever coming back, I been trying to adapt
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| But it’s really getting old, when it never really helps
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| 'Cause I know when I’m alone, those thought will speak up
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| And I’m afraid of the day when I let them win
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| But maybe that’s how real life is
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| I don’t wanna feel like this
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| All the shit I’m dealing with more heavy than I realize and I’m slowing down,
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| down, down
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| And I’ll be falling down, down, baby
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| Yeah, it’s a long way down, look out below
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| I’ve got some voices in my head that wanna see me die
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| They waiting for an opportunity to pull me down
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| They’re never stopping until I fall
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| Look out below
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| Now tell me, what do I do?
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| When I’ve got all these vices that I’m tied to
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| Waiting for an opportunity to pull me down
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| And they ain’t stopping till they see me fall, oh shit
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| Look out below |