| He saw her once, and in the glance,
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| A moment’s glance of meeting eyes,
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| His heart stood still in sudden trance:
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| He trembled with a sweet surprise—
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| All in the waning light she stood,
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| The star of perfect womanhood.
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| That summer-eve his heart was light:
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| With lighter step he trod the ground:
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| And life was fairer in his sight,
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| And music was in every sound:
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| He blessed the world where there could be
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| So beautiful a thing as she.
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| There once again, as evening fell
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| And stars were peering overhead,
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| Two lovers met to bid farewell:
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| The western sun gleamed faint and red,
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| Lost in a drift of purple cloud
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| That wrapped him like a funeral-shroud.
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| Long time the memory of that night—
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| The hand that clasped, the lips that kissed,
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| The form that faded from his sight
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| Slow sinking through the tearful mist—
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| In dreamy music seemed to roll
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| Through the dark chambers of his soul.
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| So after many years he came
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| A wanderer from a distant shore:
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| The street, the house, were still the same,
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| But those he sought were there no more:
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| His burning words, his hopes and fears,
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| Unheeded fell on alien ears.
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| Only the children from their play
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| Would pause the mournful tale to hear,
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| Shrinking in half-alarm away,
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| Or, step by step, would venture near
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| To touch with timid curious hands
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| That strange wild man from other lands.
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| He sat beside the busy street,
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| There, where he last had seen her face:
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| And thronging memories, bitter-sweet,
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| Seemed yet to haunt the ancient place:
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| Her footfall ever floated near:
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| Her voice was ever in his ear.
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| He sometimes, as the daylight waned
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| And evening mists began to roll,
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| In half-soliloquy complained
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| Of that black shadow on his soul,
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| And blindly fanned, with cruel care,
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| The ashes of a vain despair.
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| The summer fled: the lonely man
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| Still lingered out the lessening days;
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| Still, as the night drew on, would scan
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| Each passing face with closer gaze—
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| Till, sick at heart, he turned away,
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| And sighed «she will not come to-day.»
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| So by degrees his spirit bent
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| To mock its own despairing cry,
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| In stern self-torture to invent
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| New luxuries of agony,
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| And people all the vacant space
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| With visions of her perfect face.
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| Then for a moment she was nigh,
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| He heard no step, but she was there;
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| As if an angel suddenly
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| Were bodied from the viewless air,
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| And all her fine ethereal frame
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| Should fade as swiftly as it came.
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| So, half in fancy’s sunny trance,
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| And half in misery’s aching void
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| With set and stony countenance
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| His bitter being he enjoyed,
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| And thrust for ever from his mind
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| The happiness he could not find.
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| As when the wretch, in lonely room,
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| To selfish death is madly hurled,
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| The glamour of that fatal fume
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| Shuts out the wholesome living world—
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| So all his manhood’s strength and pride
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| One sickly dream had swept aside.
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| Yea, brother, and we passed him there,
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| But yesterday, in merry mood,
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| And marveled at the lordly air
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| That shamed his beggar’s attitude,
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| Nor heeded that ourselves might be
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| Wretches as desperate as he;
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| Who let the thought of bliss denied
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| Make havoc of our life and powers,
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| And pine, in solitary pride,
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| For peace that never shall be ours,
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| Because we will not work and wait
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| In trustful patience for our fate.
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| And so it chanced once more that she
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| Came by the old familiar spot:
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| The face he would have died to see
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| Bent o’er him, and he knew it not;
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| Too rapt in selfish grief to hear,
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| Even when happiness was near.
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| And pity filled her gentle breast
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| For him that would not stir nor speak
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| The dying crimson of the west,
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| That faintly tinged his haggard cheek,
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| Fell on her as she stood, and shed
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| A glory round the patient head.
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| Ah, let him wake! |
| The moments fly:
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| This awful tryst may be the last.
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| And see, the tear, that dimmed her eye,
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| Had fallen on him ere she passed—
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| She passed: the crimson paled to gray:
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| And hope departed with the day.
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| The heavy hours of night went by,
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| And silence quickened into sound,
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| And light slid up the eastern sky,
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| And life began its daily round—
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| But light and life for him were fled:
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| His name was numbered with the dead. |