| I went out to montana
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| With a bibble on my arm,
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| Looking for my fathers
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| On a long-abandoned farm,
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| And i found what i came looking for.
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| I drove into a churchyard
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| Of what used to be the town;
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| Walked along a cowpath
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| Trough the fences falling down,
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| 'til i found what i came looking for.
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| Through the dust of summer noons,
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| Over grass long dying,
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| To read the stone and lumber runes
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| Where my past was lying.
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| High among hillsides and windmill bones,
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| Soft among oak trees and chimney stones,
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| Blew the wind that i came looking for.
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| And the wind blew over the dry land,
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| And dusted my city soul clean,
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| To read in my great-grandfather's hand
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| From his bible newly seen:
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| Born james mckennon, 1862
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| Married leantha, 1884
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| Two sons born in montana,
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| Praise the lord !
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| The gentle wind
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| Of passing time,
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| Closed the bible pages;
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| And took my hand
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| And had me climb
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| Closer to the ages.
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| The picket fence, the lattice frame,
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| The garden gone to seed,
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| Leantha with the fragile name,
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| Defying place and need,
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| Declares this bit of prairie «tame»,
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| And sees her fingers bleed,
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| And knows her sons won’t live the same,
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| But she must live her creed.
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| The fallen barn, the broken plow,
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| The hoofprint-hardened clay;
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| Where is the farmer, now,
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| Who built his dream this way?
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| Who felled the tree and cut the bough
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| And made the land obey,
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| Who taught his sons as he knew how,
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| But could not make them stay.
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| Who watched until the darkness fell
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| To know the boys were gone, and never loved the land so well
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| From that day on.
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| «father james,» they wrote him,
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| Each a letter once a year,
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| Words of change that broke him
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| With the new age that was here,
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| And the new world they’d gone looking for.
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| The clouds arose
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| Like phantom herds,
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| And by the dappled lighting
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| I read again
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| The last few words
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| In a woman’s writing:
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| March 1st, 1921
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| Last night, papa died.
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| Left one plow, a horse, his gun,
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| His bible, and his bride.
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| The long grass moved beside me
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| In the gentle summer rain,
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| And made a path to guide me
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| To a sudden mound of grain.
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| A man and wife are buried there,
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| Children to the land;
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| With young green tendrils in her hair,
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| And seedlings in his hand.
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| I went out to montana
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| With a bibble on my arm,
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| Looking for my fathers
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| On a long-abandoned farm,
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| And i found what i came looking for. |