Lyrics ANX - Dark Time Sunshine

ANX

When I wake up, I see the sky
I kiss the girl, open my eyes
First time I felt it, I was on my way to Aspen
Sitting shotgun, Ninja Face driving, Macklemore in the back
When it happened.
«What's going on?»
My vision funny, left side of my body scuzzy
And my motor skills were slowly being taken from me
I’m staring at my own hand like it was somebody else’s
Panic beginning to ensue because I was feeling helpless
Maybe this iced coffee I drank has joined the vodka
And the diet soda that I been consuming every night in the autumn
Rest area up ahead, «Jay, could you stop here, please?»
Maybe I just need some fresh air, deep breaths and to try and breathe
But when I got up to walk, almost collapsed
Everything started spinning, I’m thinking a stroke or a mild heart attack
Stagger back into the whip, off to the nearest ER
The nurse thought I was on drugs, guess she was right from afar
But at the time my diagnosis was vertigo
Starvation and, basically, cocaine without even doing coke
Now on the gurney with that I.V.
in my arm
Alls I could think about’s the ???
I inherited from my mom’s pops
???
and everybody that cared about me and my welfare
Dug a hole for myself to get out of with no healthcare
I come to find out, in Albuquerque, my diagnosis wrong
Severe panic attacks was what was happening all along
I come to find out it runs in my family
So what they did for me wrong, make it my own
I reckon I’ll use it to even become more strong