| So cold is being lonely
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| Behold the feeling lonely
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| The living part is done
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| The dying has begun
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| Finished my laundry yesterday morning
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| Still scattered on the floor unfolded
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| I think about pickin' on my clothes up
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| But I don’t feel like bendin' over to fold 'em
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| It seems pointless
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| I’ve worn the same clothes for the past four days
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| And I don’t wanna change
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| And I don’t wanna bathe
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| I’m like a kid again
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| A little kid again
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| I don’t plan on leavin' my apartment
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| There’s nothing out there, better off locked in
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| Alone, phones unplugged
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| Ignoring calls even though no one does
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| Clothes untouched
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| The carpet of laundry under my socked feet
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| As I tiptoe to my mattress
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| To seek refuge underneath my blankets
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| Water leaps from a faucet
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| The neighbors' dog keeps barking
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| Cars keep honking
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| Stick my fingers to my ears, tryna block them
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| But it’s no use
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| I’m useless
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| I’m sick of being pushed on these mood swings
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| I need music
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| Put on Rufus
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| Oh, what a lovely headline — «Life is beautiful»
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| But I’ve yet to find it
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| And I’m in no rush like Lifeson
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| My pill bottle keeps getting lighter
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| And my mind’s on everything inside it
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| They prescribe it, knowing it takes my mind off
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| Whatever my mind’s on
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| That’s running my life but
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| The more it works, the more I take
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| Jump from one obsession to another til I break
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| All I do is sleep and think
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| Think about trying to fall asleep again
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| Dream about things I can be when I wake
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| Wake up and think I’m too deep to change
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| I hold my piss till it burns
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| I hold my shit till it gives
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| My stomach growls like a lion
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| But I’ve lost the desire to quiet it
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| Body odor fills my apartment
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| Pull up my blankets, blocking my nostrils
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| They pound on my door, tryna get in my apartment
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| Wondering if I’m alive in it
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| And I wonder it myself
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| I might as well stay thinking in my cell
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| I’ve lost touch and I’ve never felt better
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| Like a kid again
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| A little kid again |