| I can see all there is to see
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| but I’m blind to my fate,
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| to what may come.
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| I think I’m awake
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| but stealing upon me like the frost in the night
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| I neither see nor notice the moment when it comes
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| Light is what I look for.
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| I want to be conscious,
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| aware of what happens now
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| and what happened then.
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| You feel like a bewildered entomologist
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| who now and then encounters true and original experiences,
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| but many times discovers that it has all been false.
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| Who lays down the rules?
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| My knowledge points at the Self,
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| so it isn’t strange at all that you think you know
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| and mistrust your experiences at the same time
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| when later you get it in perspective and are able to investigate.
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| But I must put the question:
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| Is this true?
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| To what degree are you and I affected by everything around?
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| To get a clear picture of yourself
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| you must of course have others
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| who can bandy back your ideas to you,
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| make contradictions and attack you from angles
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| you didn’t know existed.
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| But I ask myself the question if there was none
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| with any other opinions than yours
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| would you say you could be awake then?
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| You wouldn’t see the whole world
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| nor be aware of anything beside yourself,
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| but that would naturally seem the total reality.
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| This way of thought might veil over the truth
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| and make you blind.
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| You ask maybe where in the world you are and what you do,
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| but to discuss the question with yourself
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| might reveal which way you took and which you didn’t choose.
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| Best of all would be to find the keys to the treasury of wisdom,
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| but would that make life better???
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| All your experiences of life tell you
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| that each man wherever he is has his own worries to fight.
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| The keys to the treasury of wisdom
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| will never be found, because it would mean
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| you would become totally enlighted, lonely
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| and independent of everybody.
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| So what would then be the meaning of life?
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| When life is the one and only thing we own
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| and once again the questions asked
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| create more questions still.
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| Maybe all the answers will come
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| when we have left this earth and enter
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| what is there beoynd.
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| That will probably be experienced
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| as different as we are different from one another
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| and due to who and when it happens.
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| But the answer to the questions must be waiting for you there,
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| for if there are no answers
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| how is it possible that we should puzzle over them here? |