Lyrics pretext - Capstan

pretext

No control
Impulsivity will swallow whole
Any chance to repent or atone
For all the harm that I’ve done
Selfishly, I try to tell myself that I was someone else
You gave me all you had
But I kept looking back
Ignoring all of the facts
I led us both so far along
I knew that I was wrong
More scared of being alone
Than leaving you so scarred
I wouldn’t let you go
I dug my claws in deep
I watched the light depart
From your eyes pleading so softly
I know that we will kill the things we love
It’s a curse in our blood
You gave me all you had
But I kept looking back
Ignoring all of th facts
I led us both so far along
I knew that I was wrong
More scard of being alone
Than leaving you so scarred
Selfishly, I try to tell myself
That I was someone else
You gave me all you had
I wish I gave it back
But I burnt us to ash
I set the fire
Down to your core
Throughout your soul
And I left you there
Atop the pyre
Smoldering
On the coals
I caused this on my own
On my own
You gave me all you had
But I kept looking back
Ignoring all of the facts
I led us both so far along
I knew that I was wrong
More scared of being alone
Than leaving you so scarred
Selfishly, I try to tell myself
That I was someone else
You gave me all you had
I wish I gave it back
But I burnt us to ash