Lyrics Heroin - Cam Meekins

Heroin

They always wonder why I talk that shit
It’s 'cause I’ve seen a lot of messed up shit
A lot of messed up kids that turned bad man they coulda been kings
Yeah
Every, every, yeah, uh
They always wonder why I talk that shit
It’s 'cause I’ve seen a lot of messed up shit
A lot of messed up kids that turned bad man they coulda been kings
Anxiety has got me stressing, am I better than this?
I wanna tell my story, I ain’t looking for sympathy
It’s like these kids don’t realize how fragile this shit can be
I was 18, just got put on to the scene
Out in Boston doing shows, I was trying to do me
Has a group of friends running around and they was older than me
A couple of them had some problems with some drugs
They was in the program, sorry to touch up on the subject, dawg
It ain’t a slow jam, this real life, I had no plan
He was managing the club we would all perform at
I wanted to be famous and he said he had the format
Homie started managing me and pretty soon
We started traveling and doing shows, jamming to beats
We had this one show in New Jersey, Mac Miller was headlining
The school of rock in Hackensack, maybe it was bad timing
But homey he was sober, I was young and drinking
So he drove the car home, I guess I wasn’t thinking
We’re cruising down the highway, it was 2 in the morn
Back then it’s no hotel, no getting paid to perform
My homie’s in the driver seat, starts falling asleep
I’m screaming, «Wake the fuck up» this dude’s crashing my jeep
He comes back to life, we stay cruising through the night
I ain’t think nothing of it other than the dude was tired
I guess I should’ve realized the bigger picture
But pretty soon I’ll find out but damn God I miss you
This ain’t really, this ain’t how shit goes
No one ever, no one ever knows
If you feel me don’t let your friends go
Down that road man, man we all should know
This ain’t really, this ain’t how shit goes
No one ever, no one ever knows
If you feel me don’t let your friends go
Down that road man, man we all should know
We all think this can’t happen to us
But nowadays all it take is a injury to get on some drugs
He was the plug telling everybody about Cam Meekins
And then we found out that he was getting high before all his meetings
From Percocets to Oxys, pretty soon it’s heroin
And then he found a savior and pretty soon she married him
And that was that, he skipped town on bad terms
Had some shit with club promoters, he ain’t hold up his word
He ain’t manage me no more but you know how it is
You wanna give these people help, you got your own life to live
Shit that’s how I justified it and pretty soon
I had more money and more problems, shit I’m up to my eyelids
And I’m sorry for the rant but then I signed a deal
And thought that he was upset he ain’t get no money from the event
We had a falling out, we all chucked it up
To homie figuring out his life out, we all shut him out
And this here is the lesson to learn, most of the time
People burning bridges on you, there’s a reason they burn
Sometimes it’s a cry for help but who am I
To be the bigger person 'cause I’m getting fucked up myself
Not drugs but the herb, but should I be concerned
Is it my responsibility when somebody is hurt
This shit’s an epidemic, right?
But still it took me
Six years just to get this fucking pennant right
I wish I had the answer, the government doesn’t
I know you’re listening right now but know somebody who doesn’t
This dude nodded off while he had my life in his hands
We can’t talk no more so this is how I write to you fam
When you don’t do drugs yourself you think these people selfish
But when you think about it man, addiction is hell, shit
I’m 'bout to call my homie, try making it right
That’s when I got the text that he had taken his life
This ain’t really, this ain’t how shit goes
No one ever, no one ever knows
If you feel me don’t let your friends go
Down that road man, man we all should know
This ain’t really, this ain’t how shit goes
No one ever, no one ever knows
If you feel me don’t let your friends go
Down that road man, man we all should know