Lyrics Down - Barrage

Down

Feel like, sometimes nobody gives a shit, ya know?
They’re so caught-up in their own world, ‘n I’m right there…
Drownin' right in front of ‘em
It’s not a cry for help, just… whatever
Here I am again, takin' shots alone
You can’t peak my mind there’s nobody home
Just this heavy weight to take ‘em down
I can’t take the wait, I’m just going down
I got a full drum roll of revolver rounds
I got half a mind to spin ‘em round
Like a pirouette, Russian roulette
Just one more bottle of Percocet
To dull the pain (to dull the pain)
I promised y’all I wouldn’t be upset
But I’m strung out feelin like a marionette
Can’t take no more, but they ain’t havin' it
So here’s the last bottle from the cabinet
Just sayin (sayin')
Who the f*** plays this game with lives in the chamber, shit…
I’m as stable as a caged horse
Doped-up being used for the race course
Never had much to stand on
Just broken dreams and a broken leg to boot
How am I supposed to carry the team without chokin'
And run the given route
I been castin' doubt for a long time
I can’t hide the hurt, is that a crime?
Take me out back and do your worst
I’ve lived through things and the pain it hurts
I ran so hard, but I didn’t finish first
‘N I wasn’t last, but that sure pain did
I wasn’t last, but that sure pain did
I wasn’t last, but that sure pain did
I wasn’t last, but that sure pain did
Oh my child, I’ll save you
Even through that dark dark blue
Just know someone there loves you
And it’s okay to love yourself too
They say pressure makes diamonds but boy are they lyin'
Pressure bursts pipes ‘n leaves shrapnel flyin'
Pressure pulls triggers —
Pushes rebellion from authority figures
If I was a diamond, pressure, filed off my jagged edge
Had me conform to the rest-a, same cut as everyone else
Here’s your jagged little pill to smooth out all your difference
Does it matter if it kills my dreams 'n shade my gleam
Just indifference
Is there anybody else on this lonely walk
I won’t trip you up, I just need to talk
I feel a bit unsteady and I need a rock
Just came from the crash and I’m takin stock
Give it one more go on the safety lock
Or flip that shit and let the pistol cock
You tell me cuz I ain’t got the answers
My problems grow like a thriving cancer
'N I got a sawed-off to take off the edge
‘N I’m bout to jump-off we’ll talk off the ledge
You can try to save me, but you better hurry
Maybe God’ll catch me, but he don’t seem too worried
Depression is flexin' its transgressions
And pulling me in a dark direction
Try to run it out, but it catches up
Try to burn it out, it’s not up to snuff
Try to outsmile it, but got low mileage
It can see right through, you can’t beguile it
It’s got my number, ‘n it always dials it
If I don’t pick-up, just know I fired it
Oh my child, I’ll save you
Even through that dark dark blue
Just know someone there loves you
And it’s okay to love yourself too
Oh my child, I’ll save you
Even through that dark-dark blue
Just know someone there loves you
And it’s okay to love yourself too